MOJAVEA Poem by Hell in a Hip FlaskThis is probably me trying to be way too meta but basically Mojave was actually a novel I couldn't write and it became a poem, which pissed me off because I thought it could've been a good story.MOJAVE It was the
peyote that reminded of the kidnapping, but the ether
made me forget it so everything was
fine.
But the ether
was mixing with the sun, which stuck me
in a spastic stupor when I should have
been writing, or reading, hell anything
is better than this!
My body was
being possessed by a twitching drunk but my head was
sober enough to realise how fucked it all was and that’s not
fair, drunks shouldn’t have to face hangovers, it’s not
Christian.
My kidnapper
meanwhile was doing the driving which was very good of him. I believed he
cared little for me as he never spoke, perhaps he is
mute or too high to speak. His face was
mouldy with hairs sticking out all over and his teeth
were just "
‘Oi! The f**k
are you looking at’
I can now
confirm that he is not mute but in fact Australian, and he still
maintains a quite unfriendly disposition towards me. Perhaps he
needs a name, most people do. ‘I am Vic.
Would you care for some ether?’
He then took
all the ether. I’m not
entirely sure what I expected, but if I’m
being honest I didn’t need any more.
Now escape had
crossed my mind, I’d already
thought of seven ways to get out, naturally. Five of these
methods did involve flying in some capacity, which was
certainly the peyote talking, or at least I
hope it was.
So I decided to
go with method seven, flail my body
until he stops the car.
I flailed for
around 10 seconds and made
several limp wristed assaults on his person. He promptly
escalated the situation with his M9, which was now
in my mouth, jamming the
back of my throat with its barrel.
I don’t
remember if he ever pulled the trigger though.
Mojave Addendum: I hate the poem
you just read.
It is the
unfinished conversation that never became a friend, the half baked
potato that could never be dinner, the Schubert
symphony that was actually unfinished or the love
that you never confessed.
It’s lack of
foresight and hindsight, just a blurry
tear in a lonely room. It never left
it’s seat in the present, as it couldn’t imagine
the future or past.
It’s in the
desert for a reason, it’s an excuse. It cooks all
the details into a blur so no one needs them and I don’t
have to remember them. It’s only a
poem so I don’t have to commit to these characters, and I can just
throw up a snapshot.
It’s the gut
reaction with no spine to hold it up, that’s right no
backbone for the stern words, it’s all just
second guesses and half promises that spill out
it’s nose and dribble from its mouth.
You might like
this character or even love him but he’ll never
move on, he’ll never grow with you. He’ll always be
in the desert and he’ll always be dead or always
alive, like a Schrodinger’s f**k up.
.IT’S ME!
Or at least all
of my little niggles, the ones that
sit fishing at the back of mind, the ones that
won’t let me write that story because it’s
too safe or too commercial.
It’s all of my
apprehension and my useless wit, it’s all my
desire without the conviction to make it real. It’s all my
dreams that are easier to leave unfulfilled where they can
live in my sleep as beautiful pictures.
It’s all the
lies I’ve told to the people that I love, the lies that I
needed to feel safe.
But it’s the
reason this collection exists. Enjoy the rest
of the poems. © 2016 Hell in a Hip FlaskAuthor's Note
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Added on December 21, 2016 Last Updated on December 21, 2016 Tags: mojave, desert, failure, anger, disappointment AuthorHell in a Hip FlaskMoscow, IDAboutI’m a new writer, I enjoy writing short essays, but would love feedback on anything and everything. Don’t be afraid to tear into my work, it will be appreciated more..Writing
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