A Place of Shadows

Everything seems fine

The pain subsides

Another night

Another night…

What about tomorrow?

How will I…

The pain…

I want it to stop

I want it to go away

But it lingers…

It stays

 

The morning is bright

Almost warm…

A blanket of safety

To mask the demon

To hide the dark

A wicked beast

And I play the part

 

As the sun drops

My eyes grow tired

The warmth fades away

And the cold creeps in

I can feel it

Beginning to rise

Beginning to break

The pain comes crawling back

Like a shadow

Lying in wait

 

The black takes over

Consumes my being

Nothing left but pain and sorrow

I try to fight it

I try to fight it…

But I fail

The pain swallows me

Like a pill

It takes control

 

Darkness surrounds me

No way out

Is this me?

Is this who I am?

Why the pain?

Why the loneliness?

I want it to stop

To go away

But it lingers…

It stays…

 

The fight is useless

A waste

So I sit

In my darkness

In my pain

The demon takes control

Takes over me

Leads me away

To a place

Of loneliness

A place of shadows

 

I am not fighting

I am not trying

Only following

Full of pain

Full of nothing

Empty…

 

We arrive…

The pain…

It is gone

Forever…

I look around

Nothing…

The demon rids me of pain

Of suffering

It is over

But I am alone

Forever…

I wish I would have waited

I wanted to say goodbye

To try again

But I didn’t try

I let him win

Now I am alone

In this place

Surrounded by darkness

Empty…

Alone…

Afraid…

I want the demon to leave

But it want go away

It lingers…

It stays.

Reviews

[Francis Orion]

Wow, powerful stuff. The ending of how the demon won't leave. Many have demons, they may be repressed, but do they ever really leave? It's a struggle, I'm sure many of us encounter. In the third to last line, I think you mean it 'won't' go away, where it says "want." Nice job and great title for this poem.