what do i do?

A bit of silliness and panic.

Why do I always do this? I always freak out when I message guy. it's so much easier when i can just talk to you face to face, but that's kind of a problem when you're half way a cross the world. yep now i'm starting to wonder if i should have messaged you ugh. i wish i understood Japanese culture better i wish i understood Japanese i wish i wasn't doubting myself right now i wish i was asleep so i wasn't having this awkward conversation with him then again LJ always said God is in the awkward moments. and now he got off... Now why did this other guy have to message me and act like I'm always going to be around because I'm not. You know I might not be so mad if had told me things like he had a girlfriend. Did he? no. He was talking to me like there was a chance. what nerve he has. he thinks he can come and go as he pleases well he can treat other girls like that but not me. How dare he think he can do that to anyone? I'm bored with him now anyway. last year this time i would have hung on to every word he said, but not now. i'm not quite so dumb.