In the Night

Forsaken by the world. I have only Christ.

Standing outside in the December night,

That car left its prints on the pavement.

But, that’s not the time when my loneliness truly began.

The wind kissed my hands and rose to kiss my face too,

But, that’s not the first time when the wind kissed me.

The coyotes were beginning to welcome me from a far away distance,

But, that’s not the first time when the coyotes welcomed me.

Darkness began to envelope around me as the car fled

But that’s not the first time when darkness hugged me.

In the midst of celebration and laughter, my loneliness began.

 

The thoughts of my heart in this bitter cold of darkness are increasingly negative.                             

Who are people that I should care, when I am cared not?

Who are people, when my burdens are stacked and stacked and stacked upon?

Though I walk through this darkness with the demons dancing around me,

I will walk boldly and unfeigned from the road that is ever before me because of the Son.

 

Yet when a car stops and I enter,

I feel as if I’m on the outside again.

Truly, I am a stranger in this world.

I do not have a rock to lay my head;

I do not have a house that I can call home.

Truly, the only one who will ever be with me is Jesus.

 

I don’t know how long I can walk in this cold, Lord.

I want to give up.

Every fiber of my being is screaming: STOP!

But, I don’t want to because I want to be like your Son.

So, I won’t pray that you will stop the trials

Because my greatest desire is to be conformed to your Son.

But, Lord, I hate myself because of my wickedness.

I can’t walk the dark, cold road without you.

Please give me hope though I’m hopeless.

Raise me up though I am dead.

Rescue me though I am drowning.

Cause a wondrous miracle to be birthed that I may worship You.

Let my heart’s desire be You alone because here on earth:

I am nothing.

I am just a man wandering on a dark, cold world

Listening to your guidance.

 

Reviews

[Ice QueenJen]

wow a very powerful writing... sorry its taken so long to get to this and the many others you have written in the past.