So What Now?

First poem of the 'No Love Lost' collection.

So what now?
You’ve cast me aside
because I wasn’t good enough
I wasn’t attractive enough
or so you said

So what now?
You tore into me again
because I tried to move on
you wanted me to feel pathetic
you’ve poisoned my heart

Heather
I wanted to love you
but you wouldn’t let me
Tell me what I should do
to make this right
What should I do?
What should I do?
What should I do?

So what now?
You’ve found another
to bear your burdens
Perfection is angelic to us
you wished it was tangible

So what now?
I feel your envious eyes
burning through my solace
I’m sorry, it’s my fault
I should have been perfect for you

Heather
I wanted to love you
but you wouldn’t let me
Tell me what I should do
to make this right
What should I do?
What should I do?
What should I do?

I don’t know how to live with you
I don’t know how to live with you
I don’t know how to live with you
I don’t know how to live with you

Author's Note

The following poems are from the 'No Love Lost' collection I wrote a while back. Eleven of these poems were written in one sitting while listening to the legendary Songs From The Black Hole by Weezer on a loop. For a month, they were left alone and untouched; I never saw these as suitable for publication but my friends keep urging me to publish anyways.

So here they are.

These thirteen poems make a single concept piece dealing with a love triangle, self loathing and heartache. The main theme is the fallibility of the individual and that we make the wrong choices even if we know the outcome.

These were posted on another website last year though I feel they deserve publication once again.

Reviews

[brenda]

thi is really good!!!

[Katub]

beautiful, can relate well

[Ravyne Hawke]

Very lyrical.. I love the repetitions.. they add to the desperation of the entire situation.. the need to be let go ..very well written and I love the form and imagery of this piece.

[JustNeedToBeHappy]

You were right to repost it, it's great :) Very very fragile and emotional.