In life we often take huge gambles without being 100% sure of where the winds of change may carry us. We experience tragedy and triumph because of our individual decisions - things in life are not always collective. Then we reach a time where we have to let the dice fall where they may. This leaves us in a state of almost mental paralysis. To be in a state where we have no say in what we began. The end left to someone else.
The previous night being no different. I realized that a conversation that I started may have bigger implications. I am comfortable in this fact and I can only hope for the best. But what scares me is that I ultimately have no say in the matter. A child sitting at the big table - contributing to the discourse in part but affecting the final say minimally. The internal conflict is enough to set one at unease. Conversation not heard by other ears. You've gotten my attention, now lets see what you do with it.
Its the quiet things that no one ever knows. And the ball is in your court.