Tuesday 10:33
She looked at me in a strange way, like she could see right through me;
though the thought of that made me feel like ice was running down my spine. If
she could see just how cold and damaged I was she wouldn´t be looking at me at
all. I broke away from her gaze, and tried to find a more comfortable position
on my chair. My eyes still kept flickering back to hers; they were moss green,
and always thoughtful. Like she was thinking more than any other human being in
the world, maybe she was, for it to be showing so much in her eyes. The museum
director cleared his throat; she smiled briefly before finally turning her
attention towards the front of the room. I followed suit. It was an older man
today, night and day from the young lady from last time. He was short and
lanky, wearing a plain gray suit that was too big for him. His voice was low
and muffled through his gray beard; I had to focus hard to catch every word.
“Thank you for joining us today ladies and gentleman, before I show you around;
let me tell you a little about this grand, famous and treasured building. Here
at the British Museum we have the finest collection in existence…spanning two
million years of human history…” He rattled off the information without passion,
like he had done it a million times before, he probably had. I smiled
half-heartedly along with the other´s as he tried to crack a joke; inwardly
frustrated that he was taking so long. The minutes passed slowly, finally we
rose. She caught my eye again as the group vaguely gathered around grey-suit.
He led us towards the wide staircase on the left side of the room; everyone
started copying his pace as the group walked up the stairs. She and I and an
old lady made up the back. She rested her hand elegantly on the railing as she
was walking upward, while the old lady strode up gruffly right in the middle. I
tried not to get distracted, this was when it counted, and every detail was
crucial.
As I walked I let information soak through my mind, every corner, every door,
every sign while graysuit´s droning voice went on deepening my insight. He
seemed a little more experiences than the girl from yesterday, but with a lot
less energy and interest. No surprise there. We walked past the jade plaque of
the Maya king when she decided to say hallo, or “Do you see anything
interesting?” as she preferred to put it. Her tone was soft, nonchalant. I
decided to reply honestly, “not really. I prefer ancient Egypt over the
Maya´s.” She nodded, and smiled politely. I waited for her to say something
else but she seemed satisfied. We walked, I tried to regain focus, trail my
steps from yesterday, aware of any change. Everything was like clockwork,
secure, the same number of people at each door, a false sense of safety. When
we stepped into the Egyptian section on the second floor she glanced my way
again smirking, raising her eyebrows. Her eyes holding the same depth they had
done when we had been sitting downstairs. She was surprising, staring someone
in the eyes seemed to be her way of communicating. I was surprised of what an
unsettling feeling it gave me, I usually avoided eye contact with people except
when it was needed. The rest of the time it was better to fade into the
background. I wanted to know what she wanted, if it was my number, why not just
ask? Everyone in our group were easy to read, bored but utterly predictable,
exactly the kind of people I liked. She was different, either very
unpredictable or just the same as the rest of them, if she was, she was hiding
it well.
I listened to graysuit another half hour before
the tour came to an end. Two hours on the dot. A polite applause and the group
broke up, everyone walking in different directions. I looked at my watch again
and realized I had more time than I had assumed. Graysuit had spent ten minutes
and eleven seconds less than the girl from yesterday, I had time for coffee. I
started walking toward the exit carefully avoiding a bunch of German tourists. She
was still standing in the center of the room, talking to greysuit, he looked
angry. Frowning at her and shaking his head to what she was saying. I was
tempted to go back and listen, but decided against it, I needed coffee. Coffee
would take away the edge of my exhaustion, and my appointment required me to be
fully alert. Ready. When it was over, I´d sleep