Maybe

So I´ve had this poem for a while.. but haven´t published it until now. I wasn´t happy with it before, but I feel better about it now, and decided to share it with you all instead of not giving it a chance at all.

MAYBE

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I´ve been thinking that maybe I should pack my bags

and get on tomorows train

I´ve been thinking that maybe I won´t get you back

You won´t be the same again

I´ve been thinking that maybe it is my fault

like you keep saying when you sleep

I´ve been thinking that maybe time has come to a halt

and it´s better if I just leave

I´ve been thinking that maybe you don´t want my love

because you never say that you do

I´ve been thinking that maybe you hate me already now

for not understanding you

I´ve been thinking that maybe hope is a strange thing

That you keep hidden, but still loose all the time

I´ve been thinking that maybe if I stay til spring

I´ll completely wither inside

I´ve been thinking that maybe I was naíve

to believe we would still be the same

I´ve been thinking that maybe I should be allowed to grieve

for the man that was, and the future that never came

I´ve been thinking that maybe I´m lying awake

because I don´t feel safe by your side

I´ve been thinking that maybe it is to late

and you won´t let it be because of your pride

I´ve been thinking that maybe I´m going insane

counting stars on the ceiling that aren´t there

I´ve been thinking that maybe I´d jump on a plane

whatever it takes to get away form here

I´ve been thinking that maybe I´m being unfair

for desperatly leaving this way

I´ve been thinking that maybe you won´t notice I´m not there

If you did, you still wouldn´t say

I´ve been thinking that maybe I should pack my bags

and let go cause I know you will not

I´ll let go of lost love, you don´t have to come back

You don´t have to become the man you forgot

I´ve been thinking that there´s not reason in reason at all

I´ve been thinking it over in so many ways

I think I´ll leave a note with goodbye in the hall

I´ve been thinking a lot these days

Reviews

[pinhead07]

Awesomely written, the whole poem flows - some thought process it must've been. And yes, glad you decided to share it - not one of those boring everyday poems I assure you. Vivid.

[Johanna]

thankyou for you kind words :)

[David Burke]

This is something we all go through, well done kid

[Johanna]

thanks :) Random question, how old are you? :)
and thankyou for all the lovely reviews, so nice to see when I chech by the page!
have a nice weekend :)

[David Burke]

I'll message that to you, and you're more than welcome :)

[Blue]

You have fascinating insights going on in your head, Johanna.

Maybes are the questions that usually take a lot of space in our minds. They can be our friends. They can be our enemies as well.

[Johanna]

Thankyou :)

I agree.. very true.. I feel like the word maybe is the king of many sleepless nights :P

[Simon Welsh]

Nicely written! I wish I could leave so easily.

By the way, there's a typo on the final line.

[Johanna]

Thankyou :) oh I see it now, thankyou, I´ll get it fixed asap :)

[jacob erin-cilberto]

missing the understanding, makes us miss the significant other, who probably is not there anyway..

it is time for the note...then he will notice.

glad you kept this poem and gave it a chance...it is a good read.

jacob

[Johanna]

Thankyou Jacob :)

[❤ Maggie ❤..]

Oh my goodness Johanna. Seriously my mouth dropped open when I read this. A lot of poems I read are good, but they just don't suck me in. This was absolutely fantastic and so beautiful and sad. This is one of those poems where you don't just read it, but you honestly feel like you're the one going through that and you really do get sucked into this. This is probably like my new all time favorite poem on here. And the way the words flow and go so perfectly on each line. Just wow. Never stop writing, because you are amazing at it!

[Johanna]

wow Maggie! one of the nicest reviews I´ve ever gotten

[❤ Maggie ❤]

Aw well it's true! :)

[Johanna]

thankyou so much Maggie! :) this made me really happy!

[❤ Maggie ❤]

You are very welcome :)

[Rossen]

Impressed by the natural roll off the tongue soft voice that makes ready to leave...
sweet yet filled with the quite desperation that touches this reader.100/100

[Johanna]

Thankyou so much :))

[Rossen]

Thank you more!

[Avinash]

You have captured the Void between emotions so well with the above lines. Simply beautiful :)

[Johanna]

Thankyou :))

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

I loved the meaning to this, it was very heartfelt, emotional, sad and brilliant.
i loved this piece so much, it is so deep, and i can almost picture her and how shes feeling.
Its very hard when a guy you love is still in the same body, hes right beside you, only hes not.
Unfortunately, sometimes people change so much that you feel there a stranger to you now.
I compleatly get the meaning to this, and i really did love it.
great write hun :)

[Johanna]

Thankyou Cimmy for your thoughts and your review :) I´m happy you liked it :)))

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

your most welcome hun :)

[A. Amos]

Lot of thought process you gone through to create such a smart poem, well done my dear

[Johanna]

Thankyou Amos :)