happy Birthday to me!

kinda rambling but whatever

celebrating birthdays alone

happy birthday to me

on the phone with grandma

she’s been dead for years

but her soothing voice still calls out to me

she’s all i ever had, lost in the memories

coke, no ginger ale is the heartbreak remedy

i miss people who only miss me in the halls

i miss people who miss out on my calls

i miss people who misjudge

i hate but i can never hold a grudge

locked in my mind,

there’s nowhere to go

smoke floods my lungs

yet we still get stoned and roll

like elvis

when hell melts,

you’ll have to fight on your own

no helmets here baby

not in this warzone

but war’s on

i’m strapped on like a lesbian

backseat to paranoia

running over all pedestrians

im different but

why does being different have to cost so much

when did these phone calls cost so much

thinking i ain’t worth so much

what’s a leprechaun with no luck

what’s me without two f***s

they never cared

why should they

but if they could

then would they

probably not

only ever care

when we die and rot

in jail cells for dead people

i’ve seen both sides

know we’re living in evil