I Just Don't Know

I hate it when my mind doesn't agree with my heart 

It makes me wish I had a chance to encounter a fresh start

I want to be with you, I really do

But my mind is telling me to stay away from you

Is it because you caused more pain than happiness?

Or is it because hearing your name makes me depressed?

If I had the chance to make you mine, I'd take it

But if I had the chance to go back and walk past you that day, I'd take it

You play with my mind, but you sit well in my heart

Sometimes you're a disaster to me and sometimes you're art

Theres times where I wish we never would grow apart

But theres times where I wish I could push you away like a cart 

Do I keep trying, or do I keep on pursuing my goals of having you

You're starting to leave my mind, but you're stuck in my heart, glued

I honestly don't know what to do

My mind is telling me to find someone else but my heart wants you