Thoughts

Am I truly in love with this man
Or is it the fear of letting him go
I am so used to waking up to his beautiful face that I'm scared if I walk away there will only be emptiness followed by heartbreak and endless tears
Part of me sees a life without him
And the other can't stand the thought
Am I being selfish
Because I know his soul is selfless
His an angel and will never do wrong
Maybe I have to much faith in him
I have always been told, never trust anyone if you can't trust yourself because anyone can let you down
I think I've let myself down
Guilt? I am guilty of so many things
I've done things
I've said things
I've promised things
And broken them all
Should I let go?

Reviews

[Glenda]

Hi JoceMaria, I agree, you have most certainly expressed yourself beautifully here! However, throughout, you are questioning yourself. Remember: True love does not hurt. True love is pure. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not. I agree with Twilight, you must not live in the past. It's hard, I know. But remember this: DISTANCE CURES. "Out of sight, out of mind." Give it some time. Stay apart. You are too close to your poison. God Bless. Good thought provoking piece.

[Twilight]

No how much you're fond of a guy, no reason to allow that affection; to draw yourself under his total control.

Remember, your past is in the past; along with any mistakes. And, along with the naive purity of telling yourself; that you always have to be "good". After all, no person is always good; and your life experiences can sometimes impact upon your everyday mindset (and choices).

Crazy too, in this piece; how you refer to the guy as if he is a saint. And, even recognised saints from history; are not always quite as described. Not even Simon Templar, The Saint; though when plated by the late Roger Moore - perhaps you could forgive him for being a womaniser in that starring role.?

Last but not least, try less self-critical thinking; and concentrate on both what you're doing in the here and now - and what "he" happens to be doing? Otherwise, such self-reflections could become more of a hindrance; distracting your focus (and possibly even poisoning your outlook!).

[Najam Us Saher]

You have expressed your feelings really well.