Chapter 2A Chapter by JocastaAfter a day at work, Sylvie returns home to a disturbing phone messageKnowing
that
Out
of the park, turn right down High Street Ken, and into and
she had not been at all surprised to learn that his name was actually Owen
Baker and that he was born in
As
she turned her key in the lock and opened the front door, Sylvie thought that
it was Simon she could see through the frosted glass of the kitchen door, which
was odd for this time on a Thursday. “That
you love?” “Dad!
What are you doing here?” The
once tall, but now slightly stooping figure of her father appeared in the
hallway. “Oh,
your mother wanted to see some exhibition or other at the V&A, depictions
of menopausal women in twenty first century textiles or some such, not my cup
of tea " speaking of which, kettle’s just boiled, do you fancy a cup?” “uh,
yes, please, thanks. Really? Menopausal
women in textile, are you sure?” “Something
like that, I wasn’t really listening truth be told. I just let myself in with
my key " you don’t mind do you? I’ve been watching a bit of day time telly,
Real Housewives of Sylvie
grinned as she pulled a packet of biscuits from the cupboard, “I’d be lying if
I said I’d never watched it. It’s the Botox that makes them look strange; they
can’t move their faces much” “Ahh,
is that what it is? Very strange, anyway, whilst I was watching it, the phone
rang and I couldn’t help overhearing the message” Sylvie
sat down and waited “It
was Greg” “Yes?”
she reached for her tea and dunked a biscuit.
Her father looked pained but ploughed on, affecting a lightness of tone
he wasn’t really feeling. “So,
what’s going on with you two? Everything OK? We never hear you talking about
him these days; in fact I thought he’d disappeared off the scene, still in the
picture is he?” Still
in the picture? Was he? Sylvie wasn’t sure she knew anymore.
“Its
difficult Dad, he works over on “But
“It’s
not that simple, there are hardly any paid jobs there for me, and I couldn’t
work in private practice - the population’s too small to earn a living, apart
from the fact that I’d be bumping into clients all the time. And you know that
you can’t just move there because you feel like it” “But
you could presumably…..” “Yes?”
said Sylvie sharply Hearing
the tone of his daughter’s voice, Brian examined the expression on her face and
decided not to pursue that particular line of conversation. Fortunately he was
saved by the door bell. “That’ll
be your mother” he said hastily and with some relief “you let her in and I’ll
put some more water on the tea.” Eva
Whtimore’s presence was announced by several V&A Museum Shop bags which
preceded her through the door, followed by an effusive hug for her daughter. “Sylvie,
sweetheart, how are you darling? Come here” Despite
standing 5 inches taller than her mother, Sylvie always experienced her as an
inescapable force, particularly when it came to physical affection. She
understood why a few hours in her empty flat would be so appealing for her
father who had to put up with this level of energy on a full time basis. “Where’s
your father? He hasn’t been asleep has he? If he sleeps in the afternoon he doesn’t
sleep at night and then he keeps me awake. Honestly he’s such an old man, I
can’t tell you how boring he’s become since he retired” “I
heard that” “You
were supposed to”
The
three of them settled themselves into the kitchen, drinking tea and eating
biscuits, with sound of her parents gentle bickering as welcome and familiar as
a pair of childhood slippers. Some time later Sylvie rang for a take away and
it wasn’t until her parents left much later, that she remembered the phone
message.
“Hi
Sylv, um, I know we talked about getting together this weekend but something’s
come up at work and I can’t leave. It’s a pisser because I need to talk to you.
Um, look, can we make it next weekend? Let me know if you’re free and I’ll sort
out a flight. OK? Call me”
Sylvie
played it again and waited to see how she felt. She knew they’d talked vaguely
about Greg coming over, but she hadn’t realised it was a firm arrangement; they
just didn’t have that kind of relationship. She had thought at one point that
they might be moving that way, a relationship that included firm plans and
expectations on each other’s time, a longer look forward than next weekend, but
then a job came up managing the five year build of a de-salination plant on
But
the idea of children didn’t fit into whatever kind of relationship they had
formed for themselves. Greg was older than her and not interested in kids; he
had always been clear about that. Sylvie also found it easy to dismiss the idea
of motherhood; she saw everyday the adult result of poorly mothered children.
The damage wrought by mothers who, with the best will in the world, were just
not good enough, they were rarely cruel and the damage nearly always
unintentional and often unrecognised, but none the less, still hurting the
grown man or woman on Sylvie’s couch. “Who am I to assume I would do a better
job?” was a question that rattled around her brain whenever the subject came
up. And
so she and Greg had pursued an unregulated, slightly haphazard relationship
built around last minute and often hastily arranged weekends in
Sylvie
pottered around getting ready for bed but as she brushed her teeth a thought
hit her. Was this it? Did Greg want to move forward? She couldn’t imagine the
wanted to formally end things, petering out would be a much more comfortable
solution for him, to carry on in the way they had been going until nothing remained,
non directive and no blame to be apportioned. No, if he actively wanted to
talk, it was because he had something big to say……..
She
climbed into bed and lay there wide awake with the possibility that Greg had
decided he wanted to move forward, to make something more permanent out of
their relationship, careering around her head. She let these thoughts play out,
trying to find a clue as to her response. But, no clarity emerged and mostly
what she felt was agitated and jumpy, arrows of energy shooting up and down her
body from an archer deep inside her stomach. Eventually she gave up and turned
the light on, feeling around under the bed she pulled out a dog eared copy of
Crime and Punishment, her usual insomnia cure. Focusing on Raskolnikov’s misery
her brain began to quieten and she finally fell asleep, light on, book in hand. © 2012 Jocasta |
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