Tyler 1

I don't get out much. Do I really need too? I mean, not being social isn't so bad right?

I woke up at 4am this morning.

No real reason for it.

It's not like i have a job or anything.

But, lately i've been having trouble sleeping.

I don't fall asleep til around 12am,

and always wake up at 4am.

On the dot.

Everytime.

I don't even leave my bed.

I just lay and stare.

I stare at my ceiling.

Counting every dot on the roof I see.

Well, until i get bored.

So far ive made it to 365.

I don't know why i do that.

Its not like there's a reward waiting for me if i do count them all.

Yet, I can't help but to feel obligated to do so.

Maybe I'm crazy.

I dont know.

What happened to me.

It's like society slowly excluded my presence.

I don't even exist really.

I mean, my mom knows im alive and stuff but,

that's it.

No one else.

I could be killed and no one would know for

lord knows how long.

My funeral would be pitiful.

S**t, the only person who would attend is my mother.

It would be the type of thing you here about and

Can't help but feel sorry for the loser that died.

Poor fool.

I guess, that's me.

I live for no reason anyway.

I'm a waste.

Spending my morning couting dots.

Everyone else is waking up for a cozy 9 to 5,

drinking coffee,

wearing suit and ties,

jogging,

living.

Now that i think about it,

what's stopping me?

Yeah, the hell am i doing laying around for?

I mean, i'm young as hell!

I should be working at a cozy 9 to 5,

jogging at 4 in the morning,

i should be living.

You know what,

I am.

Starting right now.

I' am going to go jogging today.

What's the worst that could happen.

....

What if i get a cold, though?

I could be hospitalized!

What if i get hit by a car?

It's still dark out.

What if a blind old lady hits me on her way home?

or even worse, a drunk!

WHAT IF I GET ARRESTED?

What if the police mistake me for a criminal they're looking for?

Oh man, i'd totally be screwed!

No, i won't survive in jail.

I'd be someones b***h without a doubt.

Oh my god, and there's no privacy.

Not to mention rape!

The outside world isn't worth all the trouble anyway.

I'm content with this lifestyle.

I'm fine not existing.

Author's Note

Please dont judge my grammar too harshly, im a noob.

P.S. some mistakes i did purposely