A poem to my heart, about my heart, that traiterous m**********r

I'm breaking up with my heart

Heart.
We've known each other for 30 years
But I'm afraid our relationship is unhealthy
Its abusive, its codependent
Let's be honest, we've both been unhappy for a long time

I was your biggest supporter
No one believed in you like I did
No one wanted you to find happiness and love like I did
When "hope" was all we had, I spurred you on
I protected you, I carried you
I gave you purpose beyond just beating

You failed me in return
You took in EVERYONE. Anyone.
When I tried to help you set goals and standards
You laughed in my face
You told me you'd love whomever you wanted
That I couldn't stop you
I wasn't the boss of you

Clearly Heart, I am not.
I'm along for the ride
I'm left to take out the trash and clean up the mess
Can you see how fucked up that is?
You ungreatful...you careless...you relentless
Disappointment

But I love you. I need you.
I can't live without you.
You pump my blood. You are what makes me tick.
You live in my chest.
You order me around

You tell me to write poetry
That words can help me recover from this latest defeat
You tell me that I can take it from my soul and put it in letters
And I'll be healed
Why then, is it still so heavy in my lungs and belly
Your advice, like your judgement, is weak.

Heart.
We need to end this now.
Before we end up resenting each other.
You can be my roommate.
That is all.
And if you so much as try to fall in love again
It will break us both

Author's Note

Looking forward to seeing what you have to say

Reviews

[AaronFreitas]

This is an awesome write... so honest, such depth in your thoughts. Our heart tends to steer us in many directions... sometimes not the direction our mind knows is best but our heart wants. It wants the excitement even if it hurts us. Yet, we love our heart because only we know the purity in our heart, the desires of our heart. I loved it! I feel like I could take your words and apply it right to me :) Awesome work

[Jmsavestheday]

Thank you for the review! Seems like we share some common feelings and also a simplistic writing style. I appreciate the feedback. The heart gets what it wants more often than not, but its those quiet times, not the exciting ones, where the brain prevails and calms the seas of emotion. I live for those moments

[AaronFreitas]

You said it perfectly... it's those quiet times. That's when I turn to writing :)

[Jmsavestheday]

I turn to writing when the emotions are too much for me to handle on my own. The frantic times. Its often the catylist that helps the fever break

[Francis Rosenfeld]

Love your heart. Love your heart. Love your heart.

[badspeller]

I may not be the person you were hoping would respond - and i am not sure how i stubbled onto this - but i feel compiled to say -
maybe your heart needs to know that while it pumps blood - falls in love - breaks ….
you brain is the true dominant factor of who you are - and what makes you - you.
maybe.. just maybe… spend some time with that mussel (which from the looks of your pros - seems pretty strong) and remind your heart - it to has to answer to a stronger power …… the grey matter up above.
sorry you have been so hurt - but your heart still pumps and your legs still take you to the next day.

try to smile - try to seek the good about your other parts - the heart is weak with its guidance - strong with its need - let it just do that part and let your brain, instincts, gut - do more of the heavy lifting….