The TestA Poem by Justin WilsonI'm going through some tough times right now and I just felt compelled to write this. I hope this touches whoever reads this.
I'm strugglin and I feel I wanna quit,
each day deeper and deeper I fall into this pit. I'm screamin inside and nobody knows, I really don't know how much farther I can go. They say in life you should never quit, but what they don't say is how far you can dig yourself into a bigger ditch. Sometimes I see no way out, demons in my head that won't stay out. I wake up every morning feelin drained after sleeping, at night no one knows but I spend so much time weeping. I know God gives us strength to make it, but I feel that has run out and I can't take it. I ask myself, am I cut out for this? Am I really who I thought I was? Am I not legit? My self esteem has taken a blow, if you haven't been through what I'm saying it's hard for you to really know. I'm filled with pride so I don't wanna let my feelings show, but if I don't how will I ever allow my pain to help me to grow? I wish I were average and my name was Joe, I would simply give up and let these tears flow. I feel this test is too big for me, I fear the price to pay is too big a fee. Now I'm depressed curled up in a ball, eyes so drowned in tears I can't see at all. My eyes are pink from drowning in tears, I honestly haven't cried this much in years. Tomorrow is coming and I don't know if I can face it, deliverance is escaping me and I don't know if I can chase it. Do I stand still and throw in the towel or keep fighting? If I didn't believe and wanted to give up why did I spend so much time writing? You never know who you are until your back is against the wall, that is the true test of the demons against us all. © 2020 Justin WilsonAuthor's Note
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Added on March 9, 2020 Last Updated on March 10, 2020 |