The Test

The Test

A Poem by Justin Wilson
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I'm going through some tough times right now and I just felt compelled to write this. I hope this touches whoever reads this.

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I'm strugglin and I feel I wanna quit,
each day deeper and deeper I fall into this pit.
I'm screamin inside and nobody knows,
I really don't know how much farther I can go.
They say in life you should never quit,
but what they don't say is how far you can dig yourself into a bigger ditch.

Sometimes I see no way out,
demons in my head that won't stay out.
I wake up every morning feelin drained after sleeping,
at night no one knows but I spend so much time weeping.

I know God gives us strength to make it,
but I feel that has run out and I can't take it.
I ask myself, am I cut out for this?
Am I really who I thought I was? Am I not legit?
My self esteem has taken a blow,
if you haven't been through what I'm saying it's hard for you to really know.

I'm filled with pride so I don't wanna let my feelings show,
but if I don't how will I ever allow my pain to help me to grow?
I wish I were average and my name was Joe,
I would simply give up and let these tears flow.
I feel this test is too big for me,
I fear the price to pay is too big a fee.

Now I'm depressed curled up in a ball,
eyes so drowned in tears I can't see at all.
My eyes are pink from drowning in tears,
I honestly haven't cried this much in years.
Tomorrow is coming and I don't know if I can face it,
deliverance is escaping me and I don't know if I can chase it.

Do I stand still and throw in the towel or keep fighting?
If I didn't believe and wanted to give up why did I spend so much time writing?
You never know who you are until your back is against the wall,
that is the true test of the demons against us all.






© 2020 Justin Wilson


Author's Note

Justin Wilson
Thank you so much for reading this. I am going through some things right now and I felt compelled to write so someone else might benefit from my pain. I truly hope you enjoy.

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Added on March 9, 2020
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Justin Wilson
Justin Wilson

Baltmore, MD



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