If only

His story of failure....

If Only
If only, I had known
Exorbitant expectations ; abysmal belief
Drags you away; all alone
Qualm and stoic amid grief

If only I hadn't trusted
Everyone in accessed life
The mingle susceptibility was adjusted
Causing the silent sudden strife

If only; I hadn't lost
The identity and the notion
Dreams so found; did exhaust
Leaving the agony and commotion

If only, I hadn't expected
Too much from every one
Now even single word seems suspected
In between dwindling horizon

If only, I had felt reality
Obscuring amidst the eerie world
Deciphering the subterfuge cruety
Then deploring is rather absurd.