Dear Mom.

"I don't know what I would do without you. You gave me Hope when there was none."

January 27, 2012

Letters... Should've Been Done Long Ago.

 

Hey, Mom.

How are you?

Are you doing well?

It is currently 10 P.M. on January 27, 2012.

There is so much I want to do with you.

So many things I want to tell you.

The biggest thing I want to tell you is this:

I am so sorry.

I can't count all the times I've let you down.

I continue to disappoint you.

I have changed so much in the past few years.

It has not been for the better.

I only seem to disappoint you.

I'm sure I've made you cry sometimes.

I used to be the perfect daughter.

Perfect grades.

Always on my best behavior.

You were never disappointed in me.

Now, I do nothing but add unneccessary stress into your life.

You deserve nothing but the utmost happiness.

I've been throwing my life away.

I used to think that life was such a joke, like you always said to me.

I never listened to you, but I now know that you were right.

I'm determined to be better.

I'm determined to change.

I do not want you to turn your back on me.

I do not want you to give up on me.

I am sorry that I can't be perfect.

Hoowever, I want to be known as that perfect daughter you used to have.

You were always right, whenever you would ask me,
"Where did my daughter go? You're not her."

Hey, I miss her too.

Don't worry, Mom.

She's coming back.

The perfect daughter you once had is finally coming back.

She really missed her mother's love and support.

Mom...

Don't give up on me completely.

Not yet.

I've already made steps to become a better person.

To become someone you'll be proud of.

I'm sick of hurting you.

I'm sick of betraying you.

I'm sick of lying to you.

For the longest time, you were the mother and father in my life.

You deserve so much more than how I've treated you these past few years.

I don't know what I have to do to gain your absolute trust and faith in me.

However, know that I am determined to do anything and everything to correct the wrongs that I have done to you.

I can lose friends, but I cannot lose you.

I cannot say this enough, so I will say it once more.

I am so sorry.

I love you, Mom.

Please don't give up on me.

 

Love, your apoligetic Daughter,

Bri.

Author's Note

This was something that I had written the same day I wrote the letter to myself.
My mother is an incredible woman; there wouldn't be such a thing called life were it not for her.
My feelings are expressed in this writing, and I did not feel ashamed to share it.
Mom, if you are reading this, I want you to know that everything I have written is true.
I cannot express the gratitude that I feel towards you on a daily basis.
Life is only worth living because you give me a reason to move forward.
I love you. (^_^)