Not Really a FriendA Poem by Carthage Thorne| The WildcardBad experiences, reason no longer trust as easily, why its hard to make a true friend. Vented frustrations... this freeform poem expresses.Not Really a Friend :_( You say you care, your actions tell me different Time is offered, and you say you’ll be there But you never are, it’s too late by the time you notice I give you honesty, but all I feel like you offer, Are high guarded walls, I’m kept only at a distance I must always just be your afterthought A person to go to when bored, but you don’t even do that Why am I always reaching? Can only catch you during the briefest of moments But then, there is always someone else I’m sure you prefer I’ve often wondered if you have preconceived notions of me That when you see me, that you believe something that isn’t true Yet because of it, you do not trust me, and so you don’t confide either I’m the last to hear what’s going on… never as it happens Neither wise or mature in your eyes, probably the only thing you see Is that I’m broken inside, and am pretty f***ed up Perhaps that’s why you say “Hello” only now and then Not out of being a friend, but because you have pity But I do not need your pity This bull***t act of yours is getting hurtful I know I’m not valued by you, so why pretend With your fake smile, and false care You don’t even value yourself… and if you did, There would be no charade. Problem is, lies to you are sweeter than the truth Keeping that fortress up, and various defenses, far more important It’s a wonder anyone gets to know your true colors Beyond the masked joy, and cloaked sense of being “alright” Even though it isn’t true Honestly, I need it to end I would rather the hard and painful truth Then to be continuously led on by you Yes you are very friendly, and seemingly true As much as this thought hurts, we both know You are just… not really a friend © 2019 Carthage Thorne| The WildcardReviews
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4 Reviews Added on January 18, 2019 Last Updated on January 18, 2019 AuthorCarthage Thorne| The WildcardOklahoma City, OKAboutSalutations, this is Carthage Thorne and welcome to my profile info page. I am returning from what has been a somewhat long absence to the café. But am back with fresh/new content to share... more..Writing
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