My Tears

As I pass by those lucky
Few laid underground
I become envious of their simplicity
Contemplating my eternal end
I yearn to face this
And excape this pain and stress
With every tear decent to the dirt
I hear God's laughter
Driving me to madness
Once again left alone
Floating in this endless void
Everyone who claimed to care has scattered
Lurking in the shadows
Of every vengful heartache
Why was it that I thought I mattered
The battle in my brain
Screams of the war so deafening
Tearing away at my sainity
Bring me down with your hatred
Put me in place with you lies
Pretending to my face as you twist the knife in my back
What should have been
Hopes, dreams and desires
Filtered out of my imagination
From false happiness
Familiar anger is thus reborn
Seducing my evey nerve
No better now than what
I was ever told I was
Wandering into the next set of falsehoods
My eyes finally opened
My heart finally lifted
Liberated from the shackles of ignorance
My tears no longer stream
They no long bring on His awful judgement
I've let go