Anxiety II

This beast inside of me roars and screams,

It grips my throat and it rips at the seams.

If my head were cracked open and all were to spill out,

I would poison everyone around me-without a doubt.

I have built up so many scenarios in my mind,

I do not even know what is real anymore and I do not have the time.

My heart breaks with each situation I create,

Through my mind I allow such sadness to freely permeate. 

My temple throbs and such pain I cannot bear,

I close my eyes and lay down in I hopes I may find some solace there.

Alas I know that I cannot,

A battle with my demons I earlier should have fought.

My gut grumbles and my legs shake,

Some days I feel that I'll soon go mad and meet a sudden fate.

Oh please, do not let this happen to me,

For such an abrupt end I am not fully ready.

Help me to find peace-please help me to find calm,

I know that it is in me-those traits are etched upon my palms.

I do not know what has caused me such distress,

What has allowed me to become such a mess?

I need to learn how to cope,

I feel as if I am drowning out at sea without a boat.

The littlest event can set my emotions on fire,

If I tell you that I am fine-you could tell me that I am a liar.

I miss the way that I used to be,

I am sick of all this worry.

I desire to have fun and I desire to live,

I desire to love and I desire to give.

Living with such an ailment has truly brought me down,

I beg of you-bring me to the river and slowly let me drown.

Reviews

[John Fitzgerald]

I have built up so many scenarios in my mind,
I do not even know what is real anymore and I do not have the time.
My heart breaks with each situation I create,
Through my mind I allow such sadness to freely permeate.

I love this description of anxiety. It's really something people can relate to in certain circles. Wonderful poem! I got a lot out of it.

[alan khan]

i never care much for rhyming poems, but this flows so great.

[Awaken the Sleepwalker]

I really liked reading this. It's very well written. My advise would be to work on the rhythm a bit. The rhyming is very well done, but because there is a lack of rhythm after the first four lines, the rhymes are lost a little bit
Keep up the good work.
-Sam