I Am

It hums.

white noise, the background symphony

heard only by her

scattered, shattered

. . .  a force of habit

 in decibels too low to . . . disturb

 

She sees

     and holds

      and lives

with fragile wings and iris eyes

the sadness

that has

always

undone her credibility

 

And her feet - they are from her mother

and have carried her among the ruins

every.time.

 

And a wish for a mending touch to heal them

from some sneaky shard of some broken thing

or other that escaped the broom, the vacuum, the mop...

 

And bluejeans with holes at the knees

but enough wear left for next summer

 

And the wind blows the betrayal

to dust and settled seas

salt~stained and

finally,

           s.t.i.l.l.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

What a coldness here, what isolation there between the lines.. alone, desperate for warmth and due caring. Your words have, in the past, made me smile, made me wonder, made me.. feel always. But this chills me, j.. and i hope and pray that by now, more is creeping, sliding, edging into your life and shining more light into your dear heart.

[J]

dearest em, of course you recognize this place where truth and dark merge in the basement ... a place i haunt when all else seems so fraudulent, ummm dishonest, disseminated. i know this place and have walked its floors ... not my home, no. but i do leave the door cracked. love you for your visit and concern. worry naught, love. xx

[emmajoy]

Is a while since I read your long ago words.. still incredible even though chillingly sad.

[J]

you've been basement reading again! often thought of deleting -- criticized for writing of darkness etc -- it's a risk to open that door. true. but you, my abiding friend, embrace it all with love. more than once! how else does one define a 'friend'?! my heart thanks you. x

[emmajoy]

We all go through 'times' we share and cope or, we do the easy thing: walk away, not caring a damn. To each his or her own. Meantime let's grin and bear it, girl! x

[Kelly Scheppers]

There is nothing that can undo your credibility. You are as bright as the north star to me! x

[J]

Kel! This site is still having its troubles I see. No notices when one receives a review --- grrrrrrr. Gonna have to track down those bros again and light a fire!

Just popped in to visit a sec and find your lovely thoughts. Thank you Sweetpea; as always you are so softly kind. xx

[Neville]

What a smashing find this turned out to be, a real gem......N

[J]

Why thank you, kind soul, for stopping by and leaving good thoughts!

[Neville]

My pleasure entirely.........N

[Gandré]

It's comes from heart, there is klang. In the cadence of the phrases is the true voice. Thank you. Hope you are still around here and everything is fine. love.

[SkinlessFrank]

Jill,
These words hold the immaculate beauty, power, and sadness of a killing storm. They leave the reader with the unsettling sense of both tragedy and acceptance, just as so many things in life do. So nice to read your words again. d.

[J]

thank you, d, for your beautiful and ever-thoughtful comments. you are beyond kind to keep stopping by. xx