a careless mess

bear with me while i work through this ...

If i pretend

your heart means nothing

  to me

 

maybe Mine

will resume its functional

function

and paper just might be able

to handle my

           w.o.r.d.s. after all

 

     But Yours . . .

Yours

     are just mean

   and Living

slicing into breathing tissue

  biting teeth

     grinding those words only

i can see anyway

 

And i believed you

when you told me

      that through countless rewinds

you’d become a kinder version

of

   that

       that . . . uncommon you

 

But … but in all those untidy

     intervening

days

    i became the sum of a landslide

    of calamities, blooming lilacs, spin cycles

    quarter notes, toy tin soldiers falling down in

    progression ~ plink.plink.plink

 

that did not agree with the twenty-five year old

     little girl who twinkled sweetly for you

 

And in all the dazzling, world-wide adoration of

your undeniable artistic talent

         you left me with a paper drawing against

    all my broken heartbeats

 

But i.have.words. even you don’t understand.

Reviews

[Chris]

This paused me...Thank YOU!

[Chris]

yes, only fair.

[Relic]

Your pauses stand out as much as your words. The touch of sarcasm blends in well with the disillusionment that spills little by little from your pen like tears. Always a splendid write from you J.

[J]

your accuity always stuns me, t. thank you for your beautiful comments -- i can always see your soft heart. x

[Relic]

You're welcome my friend. :)

[Abhra]

An intensely beautiful poem. the imagery is exquisite. masterful writing!!

p.s: i came to read your work a week or two back and found yout profile closed. I am glad you are back!

[J]

hello my dear friend! thank you for your singular thought -- so kind you always are.

yup, shut down for a bit -- RL can be such a pain sometimes. so good to see you again!

[SkinlessFrank]

You have a lot more than words too...beautifully sad and courageous as only you can do Jill.

[J]

thank you, my dear buddy. you always know somehow exactly what to say.

[emmajoy]

Nothing less than a superbly evocative canvas of .. .. a tumbling world of emotions.

[J]

thank you, lovely. you know your comments make it all easier. xx

[emmajoy]

Takes one to know one perhaps.. time being what it is. xx

[emmajoy]

Sometimes I just have to be here.. it's the extra layer to my temporary bubble world. Smile with me, please.

[J]

dear dear one ~~ must trust that when i think of you, my grins are ear-to-ear and you can bank on the pair of us up to no bloody good in the most creative/hilarious/history-making ways known to all civilization since time outa mind! got that? awright good. you go where my heart goes, em. xx

[emmajoy]

'.. .. you can bank on the pair of us up to no bloody good in the most creative/hilarious/history-making ways known to all civilization since time outa mind! ' Well now, if that's all you can suggest, will have to .. .. ' :)))

[Ed Hart]

yes, my dear, you have words, incomparable

[J]

thank you. i know i can always count on your heart, my hart. xx