Some Goodbyes

I was surprised

at my

           relief

 

when i finally deleted

  you

 

Because you see, as deeply

as you lived beneath dust and abeyance

    you still held your place

among memory markers

     firsts and lasts and

     . . . secret dreams

 

But

But as each of us set about life full forward

   without caution or

   regard

the World took its full measure of

       youth

       innocence . . .

and left

       hard-won lessons, pretty scars, and

       towering, sifting filters

 

And though i face each day

   hobbled

       i can walk that long hill

       my mind is still bright and

 my touch soft

 

And

And i [finally] find

  i take exception to the way you treat me.

 

i thank the World for that.  and God.

 

Some goodbyes . . . i still wonder at the World

Reviews

[lily]

I haven't read any of your writing in such a long time, so it is so good to see that you are still writing on this site!
I absolutely love your style of writing, it paints such a vivid image. Its so sad, but so beautiful. Good work.
Much love, lily.

[J]

ohmygoodness!!! my little lilly is back! ya see, we all wait, we do. like homeless kitties who know where the kindhearted old woman lives and sometimes drops an open can of tuna on her back stoop. we go and come back, always come back juss to check ... and here you are! thank you thank you for finding me again, little girl. and your most gracious comments, of course. **happy dance**

[lily]

I will be reading more of your work soon. So glad to make this connection again!! I hope all is well, xoxo

[Valentine]

Love the picture and the thoughtful words of wisdom in your write. Valentine

[J]

hi valentine! good to see you again! and thank you most muchly for your kind words.

[...]

This...touched me very deeply. I have felt this way, but you wrote it so beautifully...sooo beautifully ...

[J]

thank you, sweet lynn. i suspect you and i share a like mind with regard to subject matter.

[Relic]

~ I cannot be as graceful in my review as the others so I'll just say with confidence: it is poetry like this that proves to me you deserve a place in my WC Hall Of Fame. Excellent writing J. ~

[Relic]

By graceful, I mean as good. :)

[J]

oh T -- you are as ever graceful as a gazelle on africa's savannahs . pls don't EVVAH evvah minimize your comments or worth where i can see it or you'll make me come up there! you are a dear friend and exceptional poet to me.

you have honored me beyond beyond. thank you, mon ami xx

[Relic]

............... :D xxxooo

[SkinlessFrank]

How is it that it takes a seeming eternity to say some goodbyes? By your own grace and insight you have the wisdom that eludes most of us, who drag ancient weights forever through life, they come to us in our dreams and waking moments at 3 in the morning. You keep on walking that sweet hill and meadow.

[J]

i agree, d. and it's something i thought i'd never learn ... that some people are just not good for you. i would say good bye, but not mean it ... but this time, the door is shut and barred. and i feel pretty good about that. :) thank you for your loving comment, D. xx

[Ed Hart]

as my grandfather used to say, 'hurrah for our side'...me, i just smile and know your heart is lighter, and what is better than that...whole train loads of love for you, dear girl

[J]

score one for the team indeed! yes . . . lighter, stronger. a real mile marker for me. :) thank you for you, my heart hart. i'm so glad yer on m.y. side. dump trucks of hugs delivered to yer front yard [even a few for those pesky squirrels should they be behavin]. xx

[emmajoy]

This beautiful sadness should be read and read

' .. you still held your place .., among memory markers ... firsts and lasts and ... secret dreams ..'

As beautiful a post as ever written by you, by anyone, in the Cafe, dear j''
Its sadness, near bewilderment, and - suspected more, is put so gently yet graphically. Seems the light on that horizon has opened its arms to your goodbye, knowing it has absolute intention.

You're so missed here..

[J]

you bring tears to my eyes, my em. your heart always does that to me. and you read me as tho i were whispering in your ear. i yem happy you read absolute intention because nothing is more true. i really gotta stop reconnecting with past loves on FB -- dangerous for the heart. but i kindly copied him on this post. lol. i guess that shows intent. love you, dear em.