Recall - mind games

A dreamy reality

My memory, clear as day.
I don't know who I am,
How I got here.
Am I awake?

All I remember
All I remember is
standing on this beach.
Trying... Trying to recall who I am.

Am I lost?
Do I need help?
Should I call out?
Do these people care?

I'm screaming. I'm screaming
and remain unheard.
I can't hear but the wind.
I hear the wind. I hear it's whispers. I hear it's whistles.
"You know the way, you have to move"

I can't.
Move
I'm screaming. The wind, furious "move!"
I look to the couple. Screaming their names.
Begging the wind.
Begging for help.
Begging to leave.

I kneel. I'm kneeling. My hands in the sand. White sand with brown shells. I feel nothing. I'm alone. The wind is gone. I'm alone. I'm helpless.
But I'm not.
I knew the couple?
I knew their names.
I'm kneeling
I’m kneeling?
How?

I'm quiet. I'm puzzled. I hear her yell. I hear her screaming. I know the voice. My name she's screaming.
Where is she?
Who is she?
I know my name?
I know my name.
My name is...
I'm lost again.

My throat hurts. I'm in pain. My knees burn.
Sharp shells and hot sand.
I hear again. She again.
I can't speak. My eyes shut.
I hear the wind "I've found a way".
I look away.

I hear the wind "I've found the way. You know the way. You've found yourself"
I open my eyes. I'm on the chair.
I'm in my home
I am myself
Was I the girl?
I was the wind,
Or was I myself?
I found myself. I led myself, I knew the way.
But not my name
What's my name?
I hear those words again,
Eyes closed, opened. I'm in my bed. I'm now awake.

I know my name
But those words
What were they?
Who's the girl?

I don't recall
I can't recall.

Author's Note

I had the intention of writing a poem and it just sort of became what it is.