Um... Am I overreacting?

I don't feel right about this situation. So naturally I wrote about it.

I have a concern.

I was let go from work today. They didn't elaborate why, but I believe that it was because of how I've been acting after I witnessed a resident deceased on their bathroom floor (Feb 7 2014) almost one year, to the date, after my near death experience (Feb 17, 2013. Out of a coma Feb 18th?) . 

They did not offer any sort of grief counselling. Instead, all of the workers were given the number for the Calgary Distress Center. I'm in serious need of counselling (I cannot afford it). Not only because of what happened at work (witnessing and holding deceased residents hand, while telling them, "you're ok"), but also from what happened last year and how they've happened almost exactly a year apart. My only issue is, is that I was still in my probationary period and I don't know what to do. I had a conversation with my friend on facebook describing the details. (I'll post it)  

I've been let go during probation before: I have always been given a reason. This time the reason was VERY vague: for some reason I don't feel right about it. Maybe there is another reason I was let go that I just don't know about? Who knows? 

Here is the conversation I had with my friend. I feel like I've covered the details completely from my viewpoint, but I would like an unbiased opinion. I'm sorry if this is trivial, but I just don't feel right about this situation. 

ME:

 - So the strangest thing happened at work today. I didn't say it flat out, but I "came out" to the activities coordinator at work. 

- Then, since it being a week since I've started taking Vyvanse: the doctor suggested I take two instead to see if it would be better. Well it wasn't. I was having some side effects and it was showing. The activities coordinator saw this and asked if I was ok. So I briefly explained that I take Vyvanse and today was the day I was to try a higher dose. I then explained that it wasn't feeling well from it, so I'll just take only one the next day. 

- I kid you not. Less than 20 mins later I was escorted out the door and had to hand in my keys. 

FRIEND: 

- Whaaaat?! 

ME: 

- Yup! They also took my OWN shirt that I had bought FOR work. 

FRIEND:

- Why?? I don't understand.

ME: 

- I also disclosed that I had a near death experience to my manager. Privately I might add. The Monday after the resident died. You know. The resident who's hand I held as they lay dead on the floor. And I told them, the manager, that I was going through a rough time because those two things happened almost exactly a year apart. 

- And I said that when I get benefits, I'll be going to survivor's counselling. 

FRIEND: 

- I still don't get why they fired you. Like what did they say was their official reason?

ME: 

- "You're one of the nicest people ever. But unfortunately, it's not going to work out" 

FRIEND: 

- But....but why. That's not a reason. 

ME:

 - I know right! 

FRIEND: 

- I seriously do not understand. Like do they think you're emotionally unstable or something? 

ME: 

- Luckily, I have a social worker in Calgary. I was on benefits for a month while I looked for a job. I'm phoning tomorrow. 

- I believe that is what they're thinking. But this "instability" is the direct result of something that happened AT WORK. That was out of ANYONE'S control. 

FRIEND:

 - No s**t. That seems really shady that they would do that, seemingly with like no consideration

ME:

 - And they didn't give us a number for grief counselling. We were given a number for the Calgary distress center. You know. The GENERAL number you call when you are having emotional distress. 

- No referral to any counselling services. No suggestion that they would cover the cost of counselling 

- It doesn't make any sense 

FRIEND: 

- Well hopefully your social worker can make some progress, because that definitely doesn't make sense at all. It's totally normal to have residual emotional issues following the death of a patient, they can't possibly fire every person who is affected by witnessing a patient death

ME: 

- And if they thought I was being a problem because I was constantly in the office; discussing when I was going to get my pay. Well that was THEIR issue! Yes it was my fault that I deposited the check early. But I really don't think that it was my fault for the accountant to send a new check that NEVER showed up. (it still hasn't)

 - Oh! Another thing. This isn't about me. A person from that job, someone who I'm helping out, hasn't come back to work yet. I think that they're coming in today, but that is because the manager said something along the lines about how they had to start acting like an adult. 

FRIEND:

 - Wooow. This place sounds like they have some major pr issues.

ME:

- That poor person is TRAUMATIZED. They don't handle death very well. And was one of the FIRST people to see that resident.

- Sorry I'm venting. I'm pissed. 

- Oh and I was told to get rid of the card that I made for the resident's family. The one who died. 

FRIEND: 

- It's okay. If I don't respond right away it's because I'm in class, but I can talk for now 

- That seems really weird. 

That's the end of the conversation.

As I handed in my keys, uniform, and name badge; the manager stated (in a genuinely concerned tone), "I'm concerned about you." I don't know what was meant by that. 

Anyways. If I'm overreacting please don't bother with this. I just feel confused and am looking for a way to make sense of it. From my viewpoint that is. There may be a perfectly legitimate reason I was let go, but I don't know why.

Thanks for listening.

Jhaverty

Author's Note

After processing the events that happened, I understand why they did what they did. They probably could have gone about it in a different fashion, but hey. C'est la vie!