A Desert of Woe

The way the sand makes waves

Like an ocean tide in desert wind

Is similar to my heart’s pain

One line upon another and no end

To grief stricken silt in vacant expanse

Rippling one into the next in trance

Like an unrelenting tide it beats upon me.

My former fruitful vineyard now so barren see

Now disintegrated dust

Yesteryear’s old glories

Of God forsaken stories

The losses were aplenty

In waves they came upon me

And every time I questioned

What could my lesson be?

Certainly I failed not

To show hospitality

Ever was I willing to

Give to those in need

And how it seemed so thankless

So often laced with wonder

Why would someone like me

Be subject to such plunder?

How could friends betray

A heart as true as mine?

How could foes have access

To eat up what was mine?

How could ones I trusted

And needed in my life

Be the weakest link for me

The yielder of the knife?

The ones to slay my heart so deep

To cruelly vex my hope

How could my one confidante

Hang me on a rope?

Oh how I’ve lived in wonder

At such a one as that

Did he never understand

His place of honor sat

As high as friendships go

As vulnerable my heart

Never had I been so blind

As trust I did impart.

Then wavering my footsteps

Weakend in the vial

The poison all around me now

Heaped grief upon the trial

The longer I remained there

The more I stood to lose

Until the day I fled away

As if I got to choose

But moments before going

Mere days until I left

I tried my very damndest

To fix the awful theft

If only just to say at last

It didn’t happen so

If only just to feel the hope

of hope before I  go….