Present Tense

The Dramatic Lows of Love...Out of a tense situation I found reprieve and solace rambling off words that release my anger, hurt and fears...

I've wasted many hours at play
   even more in grief
wasted all my opportune
   moments of belief
wasted every thought that came
   with hope inspired truth
wasted every memory
   defending nail and tooth!

Wasted it all down the drain
   replaced it all with wretched pain
and wasted even that, ya know,
   cuz nothing there would gain or grow.
I threw it down time again
   away with filthy garbage
wasted every joyous thought
   and now to that I Pledge:

I'll waste away some more today
I'll waste away tomorrow
I'll waste away my chances here

to rid myself of sorrow

I'll waste my faith
I'll waste my worth
I'll waste my efforts giving birth
to any future

or real moment
any joy

I'll turn to torment...
as long as I live!

 (as I do)...

without my True Love's presence

I will waste my very life

 

without my Lover there's no sense

in going on at all....

so I'll waste my call..ing
I'll waste my destiny
I'll waste it all you'll see...
   until he's mine,

                   and mine indeed,

                                     until I'm his,

          with our Love freed.

Until I prove that True Love wins!
   (It has to.)
Until then,

   I am a waste of life

with nothing left to lose,

     and for all I see
                there is no  cure

                           than True Love saving me

  (for sure!)

How long must I endure!????

Author's Note

This is a direct excerpt from my blog and it was originally published precluded with this statement:
"Whatever Whatever Whatever..
Oh well, I guess I'll type in a poem I wrote this morning on the wings of inspiration from my broken fu**ed-off life:
It is Called: 'THE PRESENT TENSE' "

Reviews

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Wow. I like how you put this together. At first it seemed direct and straightforward, but then toward the end you threw in a variety of colors, changed up the rhythm and rhyme scheme and then released in a landslide the true meaning behind it. Good use of a cascade effect to drive the point home. You made the theme that much more powerful by doing that; that being said, you also did it in a colorful and unique way that I've never seen before. For that, I give you utmost respect in your ability to put a poem together. Very, very good.