#2018Glance

A year has passed and like every year this year also has been a happening one. The short poem just exemplifies 2018 for me

2018 what a year, I must say full of surprises both good and bad,

But the best part at the end of 2018 I won't be sad.

January a month in which I thought you would come back, I still remain blocked,

February the valentines month, again remained single, no. 25 I clocked.

The year with you at the beach I still remembered I slipped and gave you a good laugh,

And seriously the year with you was the best of the my years graphs. 

March and April were months that I got unblocked and things started to improve among us,

But then our communication started to go lesser and lesser and for me messaging you was always a fuss 

May was the month which got me thinking as I had the opportunity to get next to you,

At that time, I still had hope that I could get you back and would be lucky to have you as my wife as you were one among the few.

June to July was right there as close as possible physically but emotionally I guess you had gone too far,

And this distance had started to create in my heart various scars.

Who knew August would be the turning point of my life, August a month I wish never came,

As after the arrival of this month my life never remained the same.

I still remember August I came and spoke to you gathering all my courage explaining my condition,

While we spoke I saw you had the care for the guy who kept coming and then you asking him if he wanted water, I realized that for your 'special friend' it was your tradition. 

How a small pain changed my life upside down,

The doctors appointment changed my smile into a terrifying frown.

September your birthday month I still remember thinking to wish you by calling,

Each appointment with the doctor got my high hopes falling 

October surgery month scheduled and then a week before all gets cancelled and I feel life's coming to a stand still,

And then when again my good luck becomes bad and my karma jar keeps filling.

November my birthday month and by now I have realized you are with some one else, accepted my condition, scheduled my surgery and planned everything out,

"You got to accept and it's not the end of the world, move on", is all the people I trust started to shout.

December got 1 out of 4 surgeries done, accepted it all, realized you have certainly moved on, and known I am much stronger than what I thought,

But in my heart I still have love for you and for that, with the world in the past I have fought. 

So as I bid goodbye to 2018, I'll tell you something, remember the vow we made, the promises we had, the moments we spent, I will always cherish each second I spent,

You may have broken almost all the promises and vows, but I'll always keep mine, even if my heart starts to dent.