Crippling Loneliness

A Poem by JetMardium

4/2/2016

Crippling loneliness
Debilitating depression
Within, a vast unholiness
Sometimes its progress, sometimes its regression
The ones that are gone
The ones I sent to heaven for every little mistake
This feeling within, that everything I do is wrong
It eats me alive, makes it hard to wake
I go on, I keep acting strong
Fore its all I know
To survive
To not let the world see my pain
I die everyday, only to be instantly revived
I miss the wife I almost had
I miss the family I could have had
I miss the children I so desperately wanted to call me dad
I miss not feeling so mad
I hate feeling so sad
I have done things to deserve to be treated this bad
Love in my heart, I always had
Even when I was that hopeful dreaming evil little lad
The darkness is great, the light is barely a tad
The world floats by, only caring about the next big fad
While we stuck in the past
Are forced to relive our sin
We watch the world fly by so fast
Knowing we will never win
Sometimes its hard
Sometimes we don’t have a choice
Sometimes all we need is a joyous bard
Swaying us with their symbolic voice
Resonance
Sound waves
We live in decadence
The music the only thing that saves
It saves us, from the world
From ourselves
From our thoughts
The thoughts that eat us alive
Make us want to die