Never Forget

So I had this dream, someone close to me was killed, I had a chance to avenge them so I took it, chased down the boy that did it. But by the magical properties of dreams it turned into his 5 year old sister... I had brutally beat her to death. I had not meant to and it all seemed so real, next thing I know my intended victim had called the cops and they arrived to whatever mansion we were in, they beat me and slammed me through tables and drywall for my crime, then a black female officer who looked like jude hoff from the original 21 jumpstreet series held a gun to by head and asked if I would rather go to her place or to the station, I told her it's her car she will choose no matter what I say. She begged me to ask for a lawyer and I asked her to come closer to speak into her ear, when she did I slowly spoke as I awoke "I don't want a lawyer, I want the chair. Other then her father I feel worse then anyone about what I did. Please just kill me I deserve to die for what I did".. And as I finished speaking I had sat up in my bed tears rolling down my face crying and screaming before I realized I was back and none of it real.
I post this so I'll never forget, the torture I experienced at the hands of my ex, all her abuse... It destroyed my soul and this is just a glimpse at what I go through everytime I sleep... I haven't had a might without nightmare in years
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