Inner Demands

A Poem by JetMardium

like a titanium tungsten alloy outside
butter wrapped in silk on the inside
my mind demands anger pain violence and vengence
my heart begs for happiness, joy, love, and forgiveness
my mind ever strong
my heart torn by years of abuse
yet struggle on it does
well all the while my mind looks ahead
i act like a soldier
inside im a prisoner
captive to my mind
held back by my hate
shackled by love
forever doomed to rot
my heart bleeds
almost enough to kill
but not quite, here i stand still
the past is the past
but what about when its the present
does it become the future
am i forsaken by my very nature
doomed to life alone
all my lovers loathe me
my child will follow thier cues
in the end i will be alone
with nothing but my hate and agner just barely keeping me alive