A Rage that Fills Me

Struggling with anger.

Unfulfilled passions run through my sleepless state

Dreams or fantasies,  simply delusions of grandeur

Life always seem to be hurry up and wait

I am older and wiser yet feel more unsure

I am sickened by expectation's poison

Whose eyes do I see myself through

Father, mother, brother, faceless ones

Voices who forsook what they know is true

Echoes of praise no longer anchored in time

Recordings revolve that are mere lies

Now I wander with no rhythm nor rhyme

 The path I've chosen is testing all ties

The rage inside finds it's way out

Buried beneath the platitudes of meaningless chatter

Breathing in life that spring forth from doubt

Vows lay beaten, bruised and tattered

 The rage inside, can it be overcome

Counsel and wisdom I passionately seek

A maze before me, which way do I run

I find one who offers me freedom and strength

My one requirement, to confess I am weak

I pull back in disgust at his obscene request

For I have been trained to stand on my own feet to pass every test

You conquered death and this is your best

My neck becomes stiff, my knees will not bend

With love he extends a nail scarred hand

With pride welling in me I know this is the end

The rage inside turned me on he who called me friend 

Light filled my soul as tears ran free

By an immeasurable love he bestows grace

With a merciful hand now I can see

The famous one I now meet face to face

The rage inside is swallowed in light and life

My dreams are now new, emptied of me

Gone is the soul overflowing with strife

 Now there is calm, and rest and peace

 

Author's Note

I don't write much poetry, as you can tell.

Reviews

[Jess]

WOW. THIS IS AMAZING. WONDERFULLY EXPRESSED