MoonshineA Story by Katie Foutz VossStory for workshop portfolio #1. A mountain, some hippies, and forgetfulness. Quentin Fielding was 18 years old when he ran away from
home. Just three days after graduation, the first real milestone of his life,
and suddenly he was gone. Televisions and newspapers and radio stations erupted
with flashing newscasts and front-page headlines about the disappearing
teenager. The local church had several meetings devoted to praying for his
safety. Of course his parents were also frenzied and there were reporters at
the house for days, weeks, months after he vanished. It was years before the
search was postponed “until further notice” and aside from Have you seen this man? posters, everyone essentially gave up on
him. The search would have been significantly less traumatic if
Quentin had at least left a goodbye note, or called to leave a message on the
machine, or if he had given some small and seemingly invisible clue to let
everyone know that he had not vanished or disappeared or been stolen away by
some killer. It would have been so easy to write something to ease their worry,
even something like, Going to find
myself. Don’t worry. But he did no such thing. Rather, he had been planning
for weeks about his trip into the wilderness and the others agreed it would be
best if he didn’t say goodbye. There was no telling when he would return, if he would return, and he didn’t want
to leave anyone waiting up for him in the middle of the night with candles in
the window or an unlocked door. He simply packed up his things the Monday
following graduation and discreetly emptied the house of his life while his
parents were at work. He took a car-load of his belongings to the pawn shop and
sold everything"electronic devices, his nicest clothes, all of his books, and
collections of baseball cards. “You can’t use a computer out there, or a fancy suit,”
Goldblume had told him, “but you can always use money somewhere.” The others
had nodded with such adamant agreement that Quentin had no choice but to
oblige. Two years later, however, Quentin was not feeling so
obliging. He felt the first pulls of reluctance on a Tuesday, the
third Tuesday of the month to be specific, when he and Luna did laundry in the
creek. “Happy sunrise!” Luna said, pulling back the flap of his
tent. The sunrise was practically screaming with happiness as it blasted
through the opening and into his blue eyes. “Happy sunrise,” he groaned in return. He squinted hard
and saw Luna’s arms full of dirty clothes. “Happy laundry, too.” “I thought you’d like to start this day by doing your
work first.” Luna
was smiling so happily that he couldn’t refuse. He pulled his moccasins on and
together they walked down a foot-paved path to the creek. “How
was your sleep, Fielding?” Luna asked. “It
was alright.” “Alright?”
she repeated, one elegant eyebrow tilting upwards. “Words like that sound like
trouble to me. What did you dream?” “Nothing,
to be honest.” He shook his head. “But it’s no trouble, really. Hand me that
tunic.” Truthfully, he had dreamed quite a lot, but he wasn’t entirely sure how
to explain it to Luna. They
said nothing for the next few minutes. Solitude was a great treasure on “You
used to hate this so much,” Luna said with a soft laugh. “I
don’t hate anything,” Quentin replied. “Oh,
don’t be silly. I was just thinking.” He
glanced at her sideways, but couldn’t make eye contact. Her blonde hair, which
flowed to her waist when standing, dangled from her shoulder and hung in front
of her face. He brushed it behind her ear so gently she barely noticed. “What
were you thinking about, Luna?” “You,”
she said with a smile. “The old you.” He shook
his head. “Is the old me so interesting?” “I’ve
always thought so.” “No,”
he said, shaking his head. “No, the old me is not.” They
were silent for another moment when Luna looked up at him from the skirt she
was holding in the creek. “I have always loved
your name.” Then
he was caught. All morning he had been acting so brotherly and disinterested,
washing the clothes with her and engaging in the silence. Her gray gaze was all
it took to send his indifference swirling down the creek with month-old grime.
The sunlight touched her hair, her freckled cheek, and her bare forearms. “Fielding
isn’t an interesting name,” he said, deflecting, and simultaneously reminding
himself that Luna was five years older than he. But her gaze went unbroken, and
so did Quentin’s. “Quentin,”
she said emphatically, “I love that name.” “I’m
Fielding now,” he said, as though she needed some sort of explanation, as
though she hadn’t been present at his naming ceremony. He had meant to sound
explanatory, it was his only intention, but when he opened his mouth and said
those words his voice was low and feathery. “Fielding,” he repeated, but his
voice would not return to its usual condition. She
laughed, low in her throat. “Quen-tin,” she said, almost tauntingly, and leaned
towards him. “Field",”
he began, and then his lips were captured in Luna’s quiet kiss. Well, he
thought. Someone’s in a good mood. Not
half a second later, though, she was gone, flying down the mountain’s gradual
slope crying, “My skirt! Oh, my skirt!” Quentin
laughed at the sight of her, golden hair streaming behind her like a cape, bare
feet stumbling over roots, her short legs barely keeping up with the creek as
it trickled down the side of the mountain. He
remembered with a strange ache in his chest one of their first meetings. May had
been a hot month, hotter than usual that
year. Quentin was not entirely sure that he wanted to be out in the sun so
early on a Saturday, but his new friend Goldblume wanted to talk to him, buy
him coffee, and the prospect of a summer adventure was enough to get him to the
café. That, and Goldblume had said that his niece was coming along"his girl niece. “So,
what’s this summer trip you’re planning?” Quentin asked through an iced coffee.
He swirled his straw through the chilled brown liquid anxiously. He needed to
sound interested, if he was going to carry out his plan. “A
hiking trip, up “How
long will we be gone?” “A
while. At least all summer. You said you didn’t have college plans.” “That’s
still true.” “That’s
good, that’s real good. And your parents are okay with a trip?” “I
guess,” Quentin laughed. “Don’t
guess anything, Fielding. This is more serious than just a road trip. This is
your life we’re talking about. No internet, no phones, not even a post office.” Quentin
frowned. “I thought we were going to “Not
the part of “This
is Luna, the niece I mentioned yesterday,” Goldblume said, giving the young
woman a hard look. “She’s lived on the mountain before. She’d like to think she
knows everything about it.” “You’ve
lived there before? Shouldn’t you be in school still?” Goldblume
looked particularly irritated that Quentin was talking to Luna, but she
answered for herself before he could say anything. “I’m
twenty-two,” she said. “I know I’m small for my age. But that doesn’t mean I
don’t know how to live on “My
point,” Goldblume continued with a sigh, “is that the mountain is not just a
resort or a camping site. It’s remote, more remote than you’ve ever been, and
if you don’t remove your soul from the world before you get up there, it’ll
feel like prison.” “Remove
my soul?” “I’m
talking about leaving behind your attachments to this world. You’ve gotta
forget about technology and running water and those consumerists and
conformists you like to call your loved ones. No more mommy and daddy to take
care of you, no more friends or parties or date nights. No more nothin’. Just
you and the mountain.” Quentin
had been listening with caution, his ears attention to each of Goldblume’s
alarming words, but his gaze had been transfixed on Luna. As her cousin spoke,
she had turned herself inward, lowering her face and closing her gray eyes.
Obviously removing her own soul from the world had left some damage. “You
understand what I’m sayin’, Fielding?” Goldblume asked, snapping his fingers in
front of the young man. “I’ll
have to think about it.” Quentin stared at the man in front of him, wondering
how safe he was exactly, if this young woman in his care was so distraught.
“Give me a few days. Either way, we have to wait until after graduation. Just
give me a few days. I’ll let you know.” When
Luna returned with the sopping skirt, as well as water a few inches up the hem
of her ragged jeans, Quentin could not help but stare up at her now glowing
face. It was that face that had brought him up the mountain, and the same face
that would be his downfall, he was sure. In her expression he had seen the joy
of a thousand sunsets and sunrises, had seen peace under a midnight sky, and
had witnessed the kindness that can only be found in a soul removed from the
world. She would be his undoing, there was no doubt in his mind. It made him
smile. As they returned to the main camp with the wet
laundry, Goldblume was sitting by the fire. He was holding a tin pot in his
hand, a large rag wrapped around its handle. The smell of coffee hung in the
air with such a prominence that it could not be ignored. “Come
sit for a while,” Goldblume told them. Luna
and Quentin hung the wet clothes on the branches of a skeletal tree nearby,
then sat on one of the three log benches. The benches surrounded the fire pit
in a jagged triangle, their jagged surfaces covered with old clothes to prevent
splintering. “Have
some coffee,” Goldblume said, pouring the hot black liquid into fist-sized tin
cups. “It’s pretty strong, today.” Fielding
took a gulp from his little cup, holding it with his sleeves to keep from being
burned, and swallowed it with his eyes closed in a sort of ecstasy. There were
very few things on the mountain that pleased him as much as, especially when
their food for the last week had consisted of only carrots and potatoes, grown
in the fickle mountain soil. “It’s
good,” Fielding said with a smile. “How long have you been hiding this?” “A
few months. Since Cliff and I last went down. Why, you miss it or something?”
Goldblume chuckled lightly. “Sure
I do. Along with bread and fruit.” “So
do I!” called Cliff from his tent. “The
blackberries satisfy Luna well enough,” Goldblume said, gesturing at his niece
with his coffee pot. “Aren’t they good enough for you?” “I
want something sweet,” Fielding replied with a dramatic sigh. “Ain’t
my niece sweet enough for ya?” Fielding
laughed awkwardly, and glancing sideways at Luna he saw her freckled cheeks
turn a soft shade of red. “Of course. Of course she is.” Downing
his cup of coffee, Goldblume stood up with a groan. He scratched his beard, a
sign of restlessness, and hummed thoughtfully. “I think I’m gonna take a quick
wash in the creek. If you really miss coffee that much… I suppose Cliff and I
are due for another trip to town anyways.” Fielding
frowned, knowing that he would not be allowed to go along. Since coming up the
mountain three years before, he had not once gone more than halfway down.
Goldblume told him it was because someone needed to watch Luna, but Fielding
was sure that they just didn’t trust him. Someday, he would go back down the
mountain, with or without permission. “Take
care of your lady!” Goldblume called over his shoulder. He then jogged down the
mountain to the secluded area of the creek, where bathing was the most
discreet. With
her uncle out of sight, Luna leaned her blonde head against Fielding’s arm. “Am
I?” she asked. “Are
you what?” Fielding asked in a flat voice. “Am
I your lady?” He
sighed. “You’re the only lady on the
mountain, Luna.” “Don’t
be mad, please.” “I’m
not mad.” She
sat back and touched his face with one slender hand. “Your cheeks are all hot.” “It’s
warm outside,” he replied, gently but firmly removing her hand from his cheek. “Why
won’t you talk about this?” she said with a confused frown. “We can’t talk about it, Luna. There’s nothing
to talk about. You know how I feel.” He squeezed her hand, almost to reassure
her, half to reassure himself. “You know I care about you. But you’re not my
lady. I won’t own you.” Luna
let out a noise similar to a growl, which sounded alien and terrible coming
from her small body. Frustrated, she fled the fire and went into her tent. “You’d
better fix that,” Cliff said. He had emerged from his tent, long hair tousled
from sleep. “You
know how I feel, Cliff,” Fielding said. “About Luna and her uncle.” “How
you feel hasn’t got nothin’ to do with it.” Cliff nodded, as if that statement
settled the matter, and sat down on the bench next to Fielding with a cup of
coffee. “Well
then… if my feelings don’t matter… what does?” Fielding asked, perplexed. “That
girl loves you, my friend. And love like that is true. The earth says so. You
ain’t gonna find a girl like that in the big city. You came up “But
she shouldn’t belong to anyone. She’s her own person.” “Her
own person!” Cliff laughed. “Fielding, she lost her own person when she was eight
years old.” “Eight?
How?” For
a long minute Cliff didn’t say anything. He sat drinking his coffee, running
his dirty hands through his dirt-colored hair. “I’ll tell you a secret,” he
finally said. “But you gotta promise not to say a word to Goldblume. And don’t
go actin’ crazy about it either. You’re part of this family now and there ain’t
nothin’ should change the way you feel about us. You hear me?” “Yeah.
What’s the big secret?” “Well,
you know how Luna lives with Goldblume 'cause she’s got nobody else?” “Yeah…” “Goldblume
is the one that got Luna’s parents killed. He was watchin’ the girl one day
when they drove home. He distracted ‘em somehow, got in the way, and they
swerved so they wouldn’t hit him. They hit a tree; the tree fell right on top
of the car. And that was the end of that.” “What
happened then?” Fielding asked. “Well,
it looked like an accident. Maybe it was, maybe it wasn’t.” Cliff shook his
hairy head back and forth, obviously conflicted about the matter. “Either way,
Cory Goldblume was the only known relative of that poor little girl. She had
one distant aunt, but the woman was almost dead, stuck in a nursing home
somewhere. So after the funeral he took her in. But Goldblume’s always been a
wild man, not meant for society. I think it was just too much for him to
handle, you know?” Fielding
wondered briefly if Luna could hear them, but the sound of her quiet sobs convinced
him that she was too distraught for eavesdropping. “So what did he do?” “Well…
he tried for a while. But eventually, he
took her to Fielding
nodded, although his mind was already filling with images of a little Luna,
learning how to wash clothes in a creek and grow potatoes in frozen soil. He
could see her cooking for Goldblume, and sewing him shirts and knitting scarves.
If what Cliff had said was true, Goldblume probably reminded her often of how
he had taken her in. He might have even convinced her that she was at fault for
the death of her parents. Fielding’s affections for Luna were usually
restricted but at the moment he wanted to lash out and defend her against the
suffering dealt by Goldblume. As
Fielding and Cliff finished their coffee, the proud leader of the little family
walked back to camp from the creek. His hair was wet, and he had put his old
clothes back on, but the smell of him had decreased significantly. “Ready
to go?” Goldblume asked, his eyes focused on Cliff. “Yeah,
I think I’m ready. I got the money in my boot. You have a list of what we
need?” “It’s
all in here,” Goldblume said with a rotting grin and tapped his forehead with
one finger. He then turned to Fielding and said, “We’ll be back by dark. Be
sure to put the clothes away before any birds do their business on ‘em.” Fielding
laughed and assured the man he would take care of everything while they were
gone. He was actually looking forward to the alone time with Luna, but he
decided not to mention something that would make the older men so pleased. Goldblume
began heading down the mountain, an empty sack on his shoulder, but Cliff
turned at the last minute and said in a hushed tone, “Take my advice, Fielding.
Make the girl yours. It’ll be better for all of us.” When
at long last the two men disappeared through the trees, Fielding poured another
cup of coffee and quietly approached the door flap of Luna’s tent. “Luna,” he
said with all the calmness he could muster, “can I come in?” “Alright,”
she said with a sniffle. He
went inside and knelt in front of her, his head hitting the slanted ceiling.
She was curled up on her sleeping bag, her honey hair splayed out on the
pillow. Her pant legs were still a little bit wet from the adventure in the
creek. “I
brought you some coffee,” he said, holding out the cup with both hands. “Thank
you,” Luna said, rubbing her eyes. She slowly eased her body upwards, tired
from such frenzied crying, and took the cup from him. “Luna,”
Fielding began, but couldn’t find the exact words he wanted. “Yes?” “How
long will they be gone?” “You
know how long they’ll be gone,” she said with an amused smile. “Three hours
down, one hour there, and four hours back up.” “So we
have some time.” Fielding wouldn’t look at her. His gaze was fixed on his
hands, which were resting nervously on his knees. “Time.
Yes, we have time. Fielding, what’s going on?” He
was silent for a good minute then. There were so many questions he wanted to
ask, but he wasn’t sure how to proceed when she was so upset. She drank her
coffee, and they sat in the tent without speaking. “Luna,”
he finally said, still apprehensive. “Yes,
Fielding?” “Cliff
is a friend of Goldblume’s. They met in high school. And they’ve lived on the
mountain together for a while, right?” “Yes,
Fielding. What’s this about?” She took another drink of her coffee, staring at
him suspiciously over the rim. “So
how is it that you live on the mountain too?” Luna
sighed. “I find it hard to believe that you don’t know that story.” “Maybe
I do. But I want to hear your side of it.” “Alright,”
she said. “If it will make you happy.” He
smiled in encouragement. “Go ahead.” Luna
then began the same story Cliff had just recited, about how her parents had
died in an accident with a tree and that Goldblume couldn’t take care of her in
society. She described with much annoyance how she had learned to sew, and that
growing vegetables on the Fielding
laughed. “I had always imagined that you found life up here more frustrating
than you let on. You’re not so mysterious after all.” She
smirked at him. “It’s not hard to be mysterious. Although, Uncle Cory made up
all my mysteries for me.” “He
made them up? Doesn’t that make them lies?” Luna
finished the last of her coffee and set the cup down just outside the door.
“Yes, I suppose it does,” she said. “But it was almost eleven years ago now.
The lies have become truth.” “Wait,”
Fielding said with a frown. “Eleven years? But that would make you…” He began
counting silently in his head. A
heavy sigh lifted Luna’s shoulder momentarily, and then with an even heavier
expression her shoulders fell. “Don’t try counting. That’s the first lie.” Fielding
couldn’t do anything but stare at her. Surely this wasn’t possible. He had
spent two years thinking that she was an older"just one reason he was hesitant
to be attracted to her. He couldn’t make an older woman ‘his lady’ as the
others liked to tell him. She was an adult. She was her own person, at least in
age. He furrowed his eyebrows, conflicted, and still said nothing. “I’m
19,” Luna said slowly, guiltily. “So
you’re younger than me,” Fielding said, his mouth turning upward in an
uncontrollable smile. “Yes.
Why does that make you look at me like I’m a big juicy hamburger?” “Well,
that makes you… adorable.” He had chosen his last word very carefully. She
smiled. “Thank you.” “So,
why did you have to change your age?” “The
same reason we changed my name.” Fielding
was speechless again. The naming ceremony was very important to Goldblume, and
he could see little eight-year-old Luna going through with it, her face twisted
with confusion. His
own ceremony had been similar. He had been so conflicted that day. Quentin had
only been up on the mountain for about a week and already he was feeling the
pull to go back down. Every day he had to get up when the sun got up, which is
an ominous task for a teenager. The food was terrible, there was hardly ever
any coffee, and the bathing circumstances were less than enjoyable. He tried
not to think about how awful the winters would be, if summer was already making
him have doubts. The ceremony
took place in the evening, just before sunset. Goldblume, Cliff and Luna each
stood around the campfire, at the joined corners of the three log benches, all
holding something discreetly in one hand. Quentin stood next to the fire,
within the triangle of the benches. He
was finding it difficult to keep his focus. Whatever happened that night, it
didn’t need to change the reason he’d come up To
begin the ceremony, Luna placed an empty bowl and a bottle full of clear liquid
on each bench. Then
Goldblume began to speak. “We’ve gathered here on this mountain to welcome
Quentin Christopher Fielding into our family. Today we’re assembled for the ceremonial
naming. Before we go on with the naming, our new brother must hear the creed
and make his vows.” Cliff
approached Quentin, trying hard to keep a straight face. He had told Quentin
earlier in the day that he was extremely excited for the ceremony, and his
exuberance was apparently difficult to contain. “The
first part of the creed says that a member of the family must love the earth,”
Cliff said with a small smile. “You’re not gonna live in nature; you’re gonna
live with nature. By becomin’ part of
this family you’re becomin’ friends with the hornets and the owls, the trees
and the sunshine, the hard rocks and the sharp thorns. You’re gonna live under
the rule of the earth because the earth takes care of you. Do you vow to do
what the earth says, and to live harmon’ously with nature?” “I
promise,” Quentin replied with a nod. With
that, reached for the bottle on the nearest bench and poured it into the bowl.
He took a drink, and then offered it to Quentin. “As you drink, you’ll forget
the life you had apart from nature,” he said, mouth gleaming with the liquid. Quentin
stared dumbly at the bowl before him, hoping it was just water. He lifted it to
his lips, and found that it was certainly not water. Rather, it was more like
drinking fire. After just the slightest taste he gasped and held the bowl away
from his body. The burning sensation travelled slowly down his throat. “What
is this?” he asked, when his mouth
felt reasonably cooled. “Strongest
stuff you can get,” Cliff said. “It’s illegal in “The
ceremony,” Goldblume said sternly. Cliff
giggled. “Goldblume’s right. You gotta finish the bowl.” Quentin
shook his head. “No way. I’ll ignite or something.” “Ha!
Goldblume calls that stuff the fire of life,” Cliff laughed. “Gets easier the
more you drink. Just go fast. I promise, it’ll be fine.” After
taking a deep breath, Quentin lifted the bowl again and began gulping down the
fiery liquid. He stopped a few times to take another breath, but eventually the
bowl was empty. As he finished, Cliff put a chain of thorny vines around his
neck. “The
thorns represent the friendship with nature,” Cliff said. “No matter how much
you might get poked or stung, you’ve made a commitment.” Feeling
woozy and slightly nauseous, Quentin walked cautiously to the next bench, where
Goldblume awaited him. The
older man was staring at him in all seriousness, which was a little easier to
handle in comparison to Cliff. “The second part of the creed says that you must
be part of this new family, and forget your old family,” Goldblume said. “Like
you make a commitment to the earth, you make a commitment to us. You’ve left
‘em all behind, those others. They’re probably out searchin’ for you still, but
if the earth wanted them to find you, they would have by now. By taking the
next oath you accept that you are meant for the mountain and not for the rest
of the world. They don’t care about you anymore. That’s why you left.” Quentin
frowned. He knew that the alcohol was getting to him already, but surely he
wasn’t completely drunk yet. Certainly his family missed him. And he hadn’t
left because they didn’t care about him. No, his reasons for leaving were
entirely different, completely opposite. “I
don’t understand,” Quentin said quietly. “You’re
here to forget them,” Goldblume said with an emphatic nod. “If the earth wanted
you to be with your family, you would be. But the earth wants you here. It’s
the truth because the earth says so. Don’t you agree, brother?” Quentin
didn’t know what to do. He needed to finish the ceremony, or he would be sent
back home, and he had no idea how to get down the mountain. Before him,
Goldblume’s face tightened almost in an angry way and without a second thought
he said, “Of course I agree!” “And
you promise to forget?” “Yes,
I promise,” Quentin replied, every word making him feel more and more sick. Again,
the bowl was filled with alcohol. Goldblume took one gulp, and then left
Quentin to finish it off. He only paused to breathe once. When
the second bowl was empty Goldblume placed a chain of lush leaves around the
young man’s neck. “The leaves represent new growth,” Goldblume said. “The old
has gone, the new has come.” With
his vision swimming Quentin turned to the third and final log bench and faced
Luna. She was smiling brilliantly, holding something in her hand so small that
it was hidden within her fist. He focused all his energy on making eye contact.
She was the reason, he reminded himself. She was the reason he had come up the
mountain in the first place. Even if everything else was a lie, he could listen
to her. “The
third vow is to love people,” she said softly. “For just as you loved the earth
enough to listen and come up “Yes,
I promise,” he said, drunkenly grinning at her. With
a sweet smile, Luna filled the bowl, took a drink, and watched with fascination
as Quentin drank it and did not falter. “Now,”
she said. “Give me your hand.” He
thrust out his left hand. “What, no necklace?” She
shook her head, and tied a small piece of intricately woven fabric around his
finger. “This represents the circle of your new family. It is a symbol of the
love you will share with us.” Then Luna smiled once more, a mysterious smile
that Mona Lisa would have been jealous of, and kissed him. “The love you will
share with me.” “The
ceremony is completed!” Goldblume said with a grin. “Our friend Quentin is now
our brother Fielding! Bless the earth for sending him to us!” Quentin
was still standing there, completely undone by Luna’s kiss, and completely
overwhelmed by the 190-proof alcohol swimming around inside his body. He
told himself that it was wrong. He was underage, for one thing. And second, he
had not followed Luna up the mountain to seduce her. And yet, it seemed this
was the only way to do what he had intended when he started this journey. Fielding
had been preparing himself to ask what Luna’s real name was. The question was
in his mouth, and his mind was already thinking of probably names for her. But
instead, the night of the ceremony flooded back into his memory, and he groaned
loudly. “Oh,
no….” “What?”
Luna asked, concern marring her delicate features. She touched his arm gently.
“Fielding, what’s wrong?” Fielding
shook his head. Two years he had been suppressing that memory. For two years he
had forgotten the entire point of coming up “I
remember,” he said, his voice low and rough with emotion. “Luna, I remember why
I came up here. I had forgotten.” “I
thought you came up here for the thrill of it?” She cocked one eyebrow. “No.
No, that’s not it at all! Do you remember where we met?” “On
a street corner.” “Yes,
Luna, but what building were we next to?” “I
don’t know. It was big and white.” “It
was a church!” Fielding exclaimed. “I had just gone to church before I met
you.” “I’m
confused. That’s why you came up here?” “Sort
of,” he said, running a hand over his face. “Can we get out of this hot tent?” She
nodded, and they migrated to a shady spot under a big tree. “So,”
Luna sighed. “Will you explain things to me now?” “I
can try,” he said. “We’ve
got all day, Fielding,” she said. He
regarded her silently. They did have all day. Barely an hour had passed since
the others had left. With that knowledge, he wondered if he could possibly
change things by the time they returned. “Alright,”
he said. “I’m going to explain things, but you have to listen carefully and you
can’t freak out. Okay?” Luna
nodded with wide eyes. “Okay,”
he began. “Here’s what happened: I went to church. It was only my fourth or
fifth time going to church. It was kind of a new thing for me. I became a
Christian just a few weeks before I met
you. And then that Wednesday night, my pastor spoke on evangelism, and how we
shouldn’t be afraid to reach out to people. So I walked out of church all
excited about evangelism… and you were standing there.” He stopped, and smiled
so happily that he felt the grin might split his face in half. “And
then?” Luna prodded, although something in her voice told him that she knew
what was coming next. “And
then you were standing there,” Fielding sighed. “And you looked so perfect. And
we talked about your uncle, and your life. You remember how I met your uncle a
few hours later, and then when he introduced us we pretended we’d never met?
And I thought about how free I’d be after graduation and that if I was really
serious about my faith… I would take that freedom, and I would follow you to
the ends of the earth just so that one day I could sit in church with you.” “You’re
blushing,” Luna giggled and touched his cheek. “And
you’re laughing at me,” Fielding said. He took her hand from his face and held
it. “Does that make any sense to you?” Luna
looked down at their joined hands, and her signature mysterious smile tilted
the corners of her mouth. “I knew you were from the church,” she said after a
long silence. There was still a tone of laugher somewhere in her voice. “And I
wanted to go in. But Goldblume would never stand for it. So I just stood there
and listened through the window. It was a really good sermon.” She looked up at
him, her eyes sparkling, even in the shade. “And then you were there.” “Wait,”
he said. “You knew?” “I
knew you were following me. I knew that you didn’t really want to become just
like my Uncle Cory. And yes, I knew, in a strange way, that you thought you
were doing a good deed by coming up here.” “But?” “But
I couldn’t say anything!” she said, crossing her arms. “You know that.
Goldblume would never have let me become friends with a guy I’d met by a
church. If he knew that I still believed in God and all that, he’d"well, I
don’t know what he would do, but it would be worse than anything else he’s ever
done.” Fielding
could only stare at her. All that time he’d forgotten about his original goal
for the mountain, and it was still a possibility. There was still hope. So
he kissed her. It was not an elaborately intoxicated kiss like during the
naming ceremony, nor was it hastened like their kiss that morning. It was the
kiss of complete surrender. She had loved him for two years, waiting for him
silently, and with the new truth of her faith"and her faithfulness"he no longer
had a reason to hesitate. Luna
broke away. “So what are we going to do now?” she said softly. “What
do you want to do?” he asked her, their hands still joined together on the
roots of the tree beneath them. “I
want to leave,” she said without a second thought. “I never wanted to live with
Cory. I wanted to live in my parents’ house, and go to their church, and stay
with my friends.” “But
he took care of you.” “Yes,”
she sighed. “And
you felt obligated to make him happy.” “Not
anymore,” she laughed. “I’d much rather feel obligated to make you happy.” He
smiled at her. “You know, there is only one way your uncle will ever let us get
away from him.” “And
what way would that be?” “I
have to make you my lady,” he said, chuckling. When
Goldblume and Cliff returned that evening, Fielding went and informed them of
his decision to ceremonially bind himself to Luna. Both men practically roared
with delight, throwing their hands up in the air and hugging each other. Then
Fielding said, “And we’d like to get the ceremony over with right away.” Goldblume
stopped celebrating and stared at the young man in curiosity. “What’s the rush,
son?” “Well,
we’ve been waiting for a while. I want to make her my lady immediately,” he
said with a grin. “I’ve got to have her right away.” Goldblume
and Cliff exchanged a look. “I
was married once,” Cliff said. “I get what you’re sayin’. Better now than
later.” All
three men laughed, and Goldblume went to his tent to find his “ceremonial
necessities.” Fielding
knew for a fact that the man had no right to marry anyone. He and Luna planned
to have a proper marriage somewhere, once they escaped, but for the time being
they needed a way out. Having a ceremony was the only way Goldblume would give
them privacy"and with that privacy, the freedom to get away from The
ceremony, like any other ludicrous ritual Goldblume had made up, took place
around the fire. Luna and Fielding sat on one bench together, with Cliff and
Goldblume on the other two benches. Like proper people desiring to escape, the
young lovers carefully and obediently observed every part of the ceremony
without complaint. Together they drank some of Goldblume’s most-likely-illegal
alcohol"or “the liquid of fire” as he liked to call it. They also bound their
wrists together with a thorny vine, symbolizing the truth that all hardships
should be endured together. And after Goldblume had prompted them both to say,
“Yes, I promise,” they kissed. In
the estranged world of Fielding
knew this, and so did Luna. Now that it was official for everyone there, the
new couple could carry out their plans to escape. They had spent much of the
day preparing for it by packing their few belongings and taking some food as
well. But more imperative than food or clothing was the means of keeping
Goldblume from chasing them, and Fielding had taken care of that. As
the ceremony was ending, Fielding stood up and said, “I’d like to dance with my
lady, if that’s alright with everyone.” He picked up an unopened bottle from
Goldblume’s feet. “And I’m taking this with me.” Smiling
in their secret way, Luna and Fielding began to dance in a little circle around
the fire. They each took a drink in turn, and within the circle of their dance
the two older men hummed a tuneless song. As they danced and drank, a fire
seemed to build inside them. Such passion had been ignored for two years,
waiting within the depths of hesitant hearts for the right moment to burst into
flame. The liquid burning down their throats echoed the same sentiments that
their glittering gazes expressed to each other, and had it not been for the two
men sitting close by and the knowledge that the marriage wasn’t real just yet,
there might have been a different sort of passion between them. Only
when the strange humming faded away did the dance also cease. Fielding looked
around himself, as if searching for something he’d lost, then picked up a twig
and lit the end of it on fire. Luna
stared at him with most earnest trepidation in her eyes. Still, she said, “I’m
ready, Fielding.” Fielding
nodded and the two of them stepped away from the fire. “We’re going now,” he
said calmly. “Where
you off to?” Goldblume asked. “Got a secret honeymoon spot somewhere?” Cliff
laughed at that. “If you want privacy we can just for a midnight hike or
somethin’, kids.” “Well,
we’re looking for a bit more than privacy,” Fielding replied. He took the
flaming stick in his hand and tossed it to the earth, and the two men on the
benches were immediately surrounded by a ring of flames, fueled by a circle of
the strongest alcohol in existence. “What
the"Fielding, what is the meaning of this?” Goldblume demanded. The flames
weren’t that high, but it still would have resulted in injury to jump over
them. The men were stuck. “We’re
leaving,” Fielding said over the fire. “Luna is mine now. Her heart belongs to me and I’m going to
take her away from here. I’m going to take care of her.” “You
can’t do this!” Goldblume shouted. “You took an oath. You made vows.” “They’re
not real, Cory! None of this little
world is real.” “But
what about".” Cliff
grabbed Goldblume shoulder. “It’s over, man. You can’t make ‘em believe you.
It’s their decision.” “But,
Luna,” Goldblume pleaded. “You’re my only real family.” As
Luna and Fielding pulled their backpacks on, she turned to face her uncle one
last time and said somberly, “My name is Phoebe.” All
through the night Quentin and Phoebe travelled down The
man on duty looked Quentin up and down and said, “Hey, you look like one of the
guys on a ‘missing person’ poster in the back. Your name Quentin, by any
chance?” Quentin
nodded, tempted to smile. “Your
girlfriend looks familiar too. You guys have been up here for a while, haven’t
you?” Phoebe
looked at her soon-to-be husband, and he looked back at her with shining eyes. “We
got a little lost,” she said. “We just didn’t figure it out till now.” © 2010 Katie Foutz VossReviews
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