No One's DaughterA Poem by Jessica GillitzerWrote this to deal with feelings I've had from being disowned and abandoned. Still not resolved lol =oP
These days I'm no one's daughter
I sought self evident truths more than the approval of those I cherished In finding myself I found myself alone Walking down the hall I drag my hand across the wall Each frame falling to the tile with a crack and shatter of glass Framing fictional moments and securing them behind transparent shields couldn't... Could not and would not protect those images from the truth of all the moments between snap shots Shouldn't whitewash all the hate and callous nature written upon the walls of this "home" Home is where the heart is, but my heart wasn't in it Still isn't These days I'm no one's daughter Couldn't be daddy's little girl when he wanted a son He loved me but failed me His fear of failing me swallowing him whole like a churning sea in the night Every short coming another wave cresting the bow of his ship Each storm of self loathing lead him further from shore... further from me My heart a lighthouse on a forgotten coast Even though now he belongs to the sea I still believe the stars might lead him home A lonely child's daydream to stave off the tears today... For one more day These days I'm no one's daughter Couldn't be my mother's proper young lady She loved me until I wasn't as I should be My voice called out to be accepted but my words all to often betrayed me I'd paint the picture she desired but never quite the image she had in mind I was the correct colors, proper placement, masterful with capturing light and shadow But the strokes of my brush never suited her I'd never hang in the gallery of her heart These day I'm no one's daughter I'm a lonely girl who rows her boat to the center of a lake and paints starry nights... I'm no one's daughter too afraid of the ocean and eyes that might see the stroke of my brush These day's I'm no one's daughter... These days I'm they're painting lost to the sea © 2019 Jessica GillitzerReviews
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3 Reviews Added on December 8, 2019 Last Updated on December 8, 2019 AuthorJessica GillitzerFLAboutWriting when ever I can. As much as I can. I read and love writing poetry, it is ever so helpful for my issues. I've done photography and got into some modeling here and there for a while, I'm 2.. more..Writing
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