How I Know He Doesn't Truly Love Me

You can either choose to let them go... or let them be the death of you.

Lies.
So many lies.
He's so okay with lying,
that it doesn't even show in his face.
He says he loves me,
But I know he really doesn't.

I love him more than he loves me,
and he doesn't even realize it.
He acts so jealous around me,
Because HE is the one doing me wrong.
HE is the one who has been doing me wrong.

He's selfish,
A liar,
And he only actually cares about himself.
We are such a routine,
And that is why he is so afraid of losing me.

Sometimes I look at him,
And it makes me mad,
Infuriated at times.
He put me through so much pain,
So much misery.

I settled too fast,
I let myself fully trust him.
He lied so much,
So f*****g much.

It hurts so bad.
I wouldn't wish this pain on anyone else.
Sometimes I wish that I was dead.
I want him to learn from everything he has done to me.

Why should I feel bad for all of the times I tried to end things?
He manipulates me.
He makes me feel like I am not enough.
HE will be the end of me.

He f*****g changed me.
I tried so f*****g hard to be what HE wanted.
I wore everything that HE wanted.
HE knew what I went through,
And put me through hell all over again.

While my heart is slowly breaking,
I realize that I did this to myself.
I let him in,
When I know I really shouldn't have.

He doesn't truly love me,
He loves himself.
He'll always love himself more than he loves me.

How can I believe in someone
Who I don't even trust?
How could I have given myself to him
When he wasn't even giving me his all?

The lies won't stop,
The heartaches won't stop.
I shouldn't have let him in.
Now I truly know that he is going to be the death of me.