The Ungrateful Earth

"The Ungrateful Earth"- 1-4-14

I can count the times I have used 

the scene of him giving my heart back smashed with a hammer 

as a reason

to never let someone else hold my hand on

the Christmas lights I am taking off the tree- 

and no matter the fire hazard of thirty strands- I would run out

of colored bulbs before I would run out of

excuses.

And you come along with your 

strong hands, good heart, and insufferable patience

and it pushes me beyond the pale-

So I turn away- but forever stuck on this axis- 

I find myself pulled back toward your light 

because somehow I still need you

I am the ungrateful Earth

You, the radiant Sun

and someday I would hope to be

worthy of the warmth.

-jessicagadziala