I'm Sorry

Just....frustrated with myself.....

 

I'm sorry.
I didn't mean to make you cry.
But don't you understand why I'm....
...like this?
...............................
Never mind.
I don't even understand why.
It's not your fault.
I'm not easy to read.
.........................................
I push people away.
And put up walls.
Build them up high and strong, so they never fall.
I'm scared of being volnerauble.....but that's just what I am.
Strong? I'm not strong.
You just never see me cry.
Because I make sure that your never there.
Somedays it's just too much.
Somedays I just can't deal.
I can't put a fake smile on my face and pretend that everythings okay.
I just can't.
......................

So I let my anger out.
Say some things that I don't mean....and some that I do.
I don't mean to hurt you.
I just need....some time.
Some time away.
Some time to escape.
Some time to figure things out.
So I'm sorry.
I didn't mean to make you cry.
You just don't understand why....
But neither do I....
 

Author's Note

Sorry for any bad spelling....havent looked it over too good.....its just some venting I guess.....

Reviews

[Jenny Nelson]

"I didn't mean to make you cry. You just don't understand why.... But neither do I...." Great lines. Gets really frustrating when you can't fix things because you can't even figure out what the problem is yourself.
Been there done that. Certainly an identifiable piece. Definitely some real good "bones" here.

[Alphachad]

This sounds like a sweet acoustic song i'd really really used after doing something really really bad to a girl. LOL. I love the last part btw. keep it up xD

[Matthew Kult]

Been there. Always good to just let it out. Well done regardless.

[Krazy On The Outside]

I love those last three lines! AMAZING!!
I like all the ....... ,the way they break the poem up!
And I can totally relate to the poem!
I have days like that all the time!
And I think vulnerable is the only misspelled word in there!
Spectacular write! =)

[Satellite Heart]

I've had moment where this poem has been totally lived out. I understand somewhat how you feel. It's hard for people to understand unless they've been there ya know. Everything will work out, it usually works itself out. Great Work!