I want

 

Sometimes I wonder what will be my last words
Will I leave this world in love or will I leave in fear?
I want to leave my name in the history books
I want to leave a legacy
I want to be influential like Rosa Parks or Ruth Ginsburg
Strong courageous women not afraid to let their voice be heard
Souls born with a relentless fire
I want to believe I can

I want my passion to live on
I want to feel at peace
I want I want I want and that is the problem

I want to stop wanting
And that’s a problem too
We can never fully be satisfied until we accept that all we have is all we need
How did we become so greedy and shallow?
Always needing to be perfect, to be liked, to be wanted

I want to like myself for who I am
And not for who I think I am or better yet, for who I could be if I only tried harder
I want to stop berating myself for every minor fracture I make
I want to stop worrying if when the curtains are raised, the audience will applaud
I want to not care so damn much

I want to tell my childish heart it’s okay to believe, that the magic is within us

I want to stop trying to find my place

I want to forgo all the societal expectations placed upon women to present and behave a certain way

I want to stop feeling like I must put everything through a filter

I want to stop apologizing for things I shouldn’t apologize for

I want to inspire others without trying

I want to write something breath-taking and powerful

I want to be recognized and even admired for my true self

I want to stop reliving the past and worrying about the future

I want to forget my demons and embrace my scars

I want to be happy and not wonder why

 

I want to do something that terrifies me

I want to live boldly without refrain

I want to leave a mark on this world

I want to raise loving, kind, and brave children

I want to make them proud

 

I want to heal this broken world

I want

I want

I want to try