Coming Undone

Lately I’ve been holding out

Unable to freely let go when darkness falls

And it’s not that I cannot sleep it’s that I don’t allow myself to

Peace doesn’t come easy

 

Usually I’m eager to turn off this mind constantly swirling

Yet, when the night comes I find myself searching for something I can’t find

I feel like a puzzle put together with jagged edges just waiting to come undone

 

I miss the nights I closed my eyes and felt safe in this chaotic, beast-like world

One night shook my foundation

The worst part is when you realize that life goes on even when you feel crushed

Your soul is bruised, and no one can tell

 

When the oppressor becomes the victor

Hope and faith become a test

I don’t back down easily

Maybe it’s my foolish pride or perhaps something else entirely  

I want to believe good can win

But sometimes it seems like darkness is spreading like a virus

And I’m searching for the cure