Fading

A Poem by Jessalynn

Fading

Do you feel it too
The harder I try the less I see
I can’t tell if you sense it as well
This part always starts to feel like hell
But what can I do

Slipping away under the pressure of what could be
The sun sets on a chapter that was never opened to read
The potential of so much fading into the dark
The light dims slowly in contrast to racing in my heart

The butterflies inside me, once a feeling strange but welcomed
Now they’ve stopped flying one by one they’re dying
And I can’t stop it, how long until they are all gone?

I just want to hold on a little longer
But I can feel the fading getting stronger
I’m trying to hard to keep this alive
But what if I have to let go to survive

You were the light the flickering guiding me out of this long and lonely hallway
But it’s moving faster away than I can follow
My feet tripping on the baggage I’ve carried with me
I can’t reach it, I’m trying, I’m so sorry, I’m trying my hardest but its hollow.
Not the hallway, not the light, not you, not the darkness, maybe me, it’s me….fading.