My Confession

 For months I’ve been living, with a rebellious heart

_{I thought I was happy, but now I’m falling apart}

 

_{They say it isn’t easy, to turn away from your sin}

_{I’m starting to believe them; I’m losing the battle within}

 

_{You see I’ve been drowning, in the world’s way of living}

_{I’m losing respect for my parents, I’m lying and I’m sinning}

 

_{I wish this confession, could be made by someone else}

_{But let’s face it, your example tells}

It gives your sin away and teaches you a lesson

 Now, let’s get back to the core

_{I got into a relationship before my heart was ready}

_{I’m tried to make it last, but now my heart is heavy}

 

_{I don’t know what to do; my parents think its lame}

_{For me to be getting involved with this man, _______ is his name}

 

_{But I love him, does that count}

_{He makes me happy when my parents aren’t around}

 

_{But when we’re all together, the looks don’t seem to fade}

_{I know there is a problem, and I continually try to pray}

 

_{What if this lasts forever? What if nothing begins to change}

_{I can’t bear the sorrow, hurt, and pain}

 

_{My scars are increasing, the knife is my escape}

_{But I know it isn’t pleasing, to the Lord who’s love was draped}

 

_{Upon a cross with blood as its image}

_{He took my sin away when I asked for forgiveness}

 

_{Now what should I do, yes, what should I pray}

_{That the LORD would lead me to repentance, or simply give me my way}

 

_{My selfishness and pride are enemies to me}

_{They swallow me each day, and I don’t know who to be}

 

_{Maybe I’m just rambling, on about my sin}

_{But this confusion inside me, is like a bomb in a bin}

 

_{I’m ready to explode, shattered pieces in the air}

_{Before they crash upon the ground, everyone begins to stare}

 

_{Church should be a place, where you can break down and cry}

_{But sadly it’s a place, where people go in and lie}

 

_{We feel we can’t be real, we feel too bad, too fake}

_{We wear our plastic smiles, but don’t realize what’s at stake}

 

_{Do you understand what I’m saying, do you see what we create}

_{We’ve built a façade of neatness, and before you know it it’ll be too late}

 

_{We have to surrender our weakness; we have to demolish our pride}

_{We have to take off our many masks, and look to God on high}

 

_{His grace is sufficient in weakness, His power is so great}

_{So why then do we worry, about the world’s undying hate}

 

_{You see, I’ve made a difference, in my life and in my faith}

_{I decreased my rebellious nature, and increased my love and faith}

 

_{I’ve given up my running; I’ve dropped out of my hell-bound race}

_{And now that I wear forgiveness, I’m embracing God’s gift of grace}

Author's Note

This is a poem I wrote on 9-3-12. This was the out pour of my heart. I believe you will all be able to relate.

Reviews

[Bats In The Belfry]

Bravo! Good for you...its hard to see outside of our selves and a blessing when we are given the sight to do so. Then to face your deamons head on shows the strength of your character. Fantastic thought provoking write.

[That1Nerd23]

Yes, it certainly is hard to see outside our selves...I agree 100%!

Thank you so much!! ((:

[Balkaran Sidhu]

Great job!

[That1Nerd23]

Thank you!

[Tabitha t]

This was amazing! you can tell it came from inside of yourself and you didnt hold anything back. great job

[That1Nerd23]

Thank you! I am so glad you like it! And yes, it certainly did come from the heart. (:

[Soul Fire]

Wow....I am speechless....Excellent!

[That1Nerd23]

Awe (: Thank you!

[Soul Fire]

You're welcome

[Arte Por Vida]

I can relate so well it's amazing. I don't know if I've personally reached the state that you are in the end of the poem, but I hope I get there soon. This is so beautiful and wonderful. :)

[That1Nerd23]

I am glad you can relate. We are a lot alike, it's nice.

I am glad you liked it!
read moreI am glad you can relate. We are a lot alike, it's nice.

I am glad you liked it!

One day you will get there, and when you do it's gonna be amazing!

Thanks for reading/reviewing this, I really appreciate it! (:

[Chuck]

Wonderful. You are right. I have lived this poem more than once. You are great at capturing real life in your words. I see wonderful and powerful poems coming from you for years to come.

[That1Nerd23]

It's difficult, but there is a reason for everything. Each new experience is lie water that helps us grow, sometimes the water rains down, and other times it pours down in the midst of a storm. But it helps us grow, that's the purpose.

I appreciate your confident compliment, that's very kind of you. Thank you.

[Isobella Rose]

I am sure everyone can relate. Good work :)

[That1Nerd23]

Thank you. (:

[Steven Cash]

Oooh, we all have secrets Jessa. It feels good to get yours of your chest, eh?

Nice read.

[That1Nerd23]

Yes, it sure is!

Thank you!

[I'm Just me:)]

this feels like something ive been through, and i love this a lot very relateable i haven't seen a better poem written!! and my sins hurt because i'm a preachers daughter and its true they come to church and lie, so i became rebelious and avoided family, but now god carries my sin, and i will always love him!

[That1Nerd23]

You're review is so encouraging, thank you.

I am glad I am not alone. Oh the beauty of redemption!

It would be incredibly difficult to be a preachers daughter, I really respect you though!

[I'm Just me:)]

yea it is because i am good yet people think im the average freaky preachers kid

[That1Nerd23]

Haha, yeah, I know what you mean. I have man PK friends. (:

[I'm Just me:)]

lol yea dont get along well with girls at school so i got guy friends

[That1Nerd23]

Hahah, I see. Well, there is nothing wrong with that. Guard your heart and you're good to go. (:

[I'm Just me:)]

yea i got my boyfriend, and he is all i want. i mean yea i got other friends but he means more to me than anything