Really Smile

Bring back painful memories
I thought were lost but I guess were found
brief amount of happiness I wish I never felt
’cause it was a lie these feelings
I was fine, content even before
For a brief second in my life
I felt happy again, but now I’m back were I started
if only I would have stayed and never left
then it might not seem as foreign to me now
yes there would be no happy
but then there would also be no sad
yes there would be little smiles
but then there would also be little tears
I would live life in neutral
 and yes one day I might find someone
who will spread a real smile across my face
one that will be on forever
and it might not be today, probably not even tomorrow
but one day, one day I’ll really smile