Rainbow: The Weakness (part 10)

The hospital let me leave the day after David came to visit me and Robbie. It was weird having someone you could call your son; it was a mixed feeling of happiness and confusion. Robbie had to stay in the hospital for the next few months, so he could grow and mature.

When my mother came to pick me up, she was shocked to see David and I holding hands outside the hospital. She helped me into the car, and gave David an evil glare. I heard him chuckle and wave as we drove away, headed for home.

When we got home, my dad welcomed me with open arms and a big smile across his face. He was a new proud grandfather, and he enjoyed that nickname. My mother hadn’t talked to me the entire way home, so I assumed that she was upset that we could call her a grandmother now.

“How are you feeling baby?” My father asked, taking my jacket and hanging it up in the closet next to the front door. I gave a smile, and nodded.

“I’m good dad, I missed you.” I said, pulling him into another hug, taking in the warmth and tight embrace of it.

“You’d better get up to bed and rest now,” I heard my mother say stiffly as my dad released his grip on me. He looked sad, even though he loved the idea of being a grandfather; I knew he thought it was too soon.

I agreed with him.

“Yeah,” I said, turning to my mother, giving her a hug, and heading up the stairs. I didn’t want to lie in a bed for any amount of time for awhile, so I decided to clean. When I saw the state my room was in, I realized I couldn’t clean it; someone had already beaten me to it.

Mom, I thought, realizing that she wouldn’t want me to get hurt in any way again. I didn’t want her to shield me, I just wanted her support; I wondered when she would finally realize this.

I sat on the edge of my bed and starred out the window, tapping my foot lightly against the hard wood floor. I began to think of what I was going to do about Robbie, and even more importantly, David. I knew the second David saw Robbie he would want to keep him. I know we couldn’t keep Robbie even if we wanted to; our parents were too different, and we just couldn’t pay the bills.

I needed something to keep my mind off all the stress.

 

 

 I walked around the corner, turning to come face to face with Mona’s old house. I watched as I saw three little kids throw a ball between them and one adult, screaming happily between each catch. I bite my lip, trying not to cry as I thought to how I was giving that up.

I stood there for 10 minutes before I felt a small tap on my shoulder. I turned to face David, a smile spread wide across his face, still happy about Robbie. It would crush me to tell him that Robbie was being put up for adoption as soon as he was able to live outside of a tiny plastic bubble.

“You wanted to see me Rain?” He asked, using my nickname a lot lately. The name just reminded me of Mona, and why we were here in the first place.

“How have you been fairing with the addiction?” I asked, deciding to cut through all the bullshit. I wasn’t here for small talk; I was here to get what I wanted and get happy again.

“Itch is still here, why?” He asked, the smile disappearing with his final words. I grabbed his hands and held them in mine, looking deeply into his eyes.

“Let’s go, by the end of the night, you won’t be feeling that itch anymore.” I said, pulling him into me, kissing him gently. He kissed back, and looked back at me, his smile bigger than before.

“What about Robbie?” He asked his voice full of concern and genuine worry. I put my finger over his lips, and shook my head.

“We can’t take care of him Sunshine; we have to let him go.” I said, sounding as sad as I could. I saw his eyes tear up and stare back at me in disbelief, as if he couldn’t understand what I was saying. He sighed, and hugged me, his grip tighter than usual.

“Alright, so where are we going to go?”

 

 

It was a lot harder to find the drugs without knowing dealers. The only dealer David knew of was on the upper part of town, and would take an hour to get there. We didn’t have an hour to spare, but we started there anyways.

When we got there, David ran in with the money, and came out not three minutes later with it; the magical escape. I would be worry free pretty soon, and able to feel like a kid again, instead of the adult I was slowly becoming. I didn’t realize how much I had missed the high; the hospital had me on drugs that kept me satisfied for the time being.

“Where are we going then?” He asked, starting up the engine of his worn out Civic. I thought for a moment as to where we would go, but I could only think of one place.

“Mona’s or bust,” I said, smiling as I recalled out first time together there. It was one of the best moments of my life that would change my life. I wondered if I knew that before, if I would have done it still; would I give up my friends, Mike, and grades for this life?

“What about the family living there?” He asked, as we began to drive, turning a corner as he spoke.

“F**k them; they aren’t going to stop us if we sneak into the backyard. That’ll do,” I said, taking charge of this situation. I had been through too much over the past few months to care if someone was going to try and stop us.

 

 

  

The family wasn’t there so it wasn’t hard for David and me to just walk into the backyard and chill. I was eager to feel the pinch of the needle, entering my arm and taking everything away, leaving just David and I.

David went first, closing his eyes as he injected it into his right arm, and sighing softly. I smiled, and waited for him to open his eyes again.

Now, it’s my turn; I was ready, I thought. I could handle this high again without losing myself within it.

I wasn’t addicted, reality just hurt too much to want it around. I wanted the world that I had when I was high; no worries, no responsibilities. Just you and whoever you were with. That was always friends and David; who wouldn’t want that?

He got it all ready, and handed it over to me, a smile like I had never seen before. I knew that the first thing I fell for was his smile, but I had forgotten how wonderful it looked when he was happy. His face seemed to light up in a way that couldn’t be done any other way. His eyes glistened, going a lighter blue than usual; I could always tell when he was happy, and actually happy. It was a wonderful superpower, especially when he lied.

“You do it; it’s been awhile for me.” I said, knowing how much I didn’t want to mess this up, and knowing how much David would enjoy it more. His smile grew, if it was possible at all, as he steadily held the tip of the needle at the edge of my skin.

He pushed gently, it entering my skin and holding it there for a few seconds, before pushing down on the plunger.

The feeling hit me like a lightning bolt, a sudden rush of numbness and alertness beginning to flow through my entire body. It began in my arms, and spread through towards my chest, locking it within its strong grasp. It spread through my heart and lungs, stopping both for a few seconds, continually spreading through my legs and feet.

I let out a gasp of air, feeling every muscle move with it, as I let out a long sigh of relief. I was home again, and it felt wonderful.