What if..?

I lost it all,

even the fire that once burned within me,

everything is gone.

 

He came into my life,

I guess he was like the antidote to my burning boredom with life,

he became my everything.

 

It's all so easy,

to just walk away and forget,

but when you're with someone,

someone as broken as you,

you don't forget.

 

Every moment is like heaven,

nothing could feel more amazing,

his hugs made me feel whole,

a rare occassion that he would hug me,

he would always whisper something.

 

It would be rambling nonscence that would make me smile,

no matter what kind of day I was having,

he helped.

 

I would smile off the pain,

and drink off the memories,

making room for the new ones.

 

But the day he died,

I was suppose to be there;

we were running away,

but I was running behind.

 

He found his way out of this boredom of a life,

shot himself three times and then stabbed with a knife.

 

I held contempt for the person who helped him,

but they were never caught...

 

So as I sit here,

feeling the vibrations of the tracks,

the train in sight,

I can't help but wonder,

what if I had been on time that night?

Reviews

[Alicia Hirshey]

your word play is amazing. I can feel your emotion jumping out at me.

[Chloe]

So heartbreaking, I truly understand.