Tear Soaked Teddy.

A poem about being abused by my father, and how I delt with it.

Dying inside,

This lost angel of mine,

Never let a tear you cry,

Make you want to die.

 

I feel the pressure against my arm,

The new ones only hurt,

The old ones only remind me why,

I'll never be afraid to die.

 

I see the rain fall against the ground,

As I see the pain all around,

I realize what I must do,

I realize it was all up to you.

 

You let your temptations rule,

Over yourself you silly fool,

You hurt your one and only daughter,

And let me drown in troubled water.

 

I drowned in hate instead of love,

Over the edge you push and shove,

You sentanced me to a life of hell,

Stuck inside this small cell.

 

Making my breath exaserbated and slow,

Making me feel so low,

Low enough to be six feet under,

Low enough to be left in wonder.

 

Why'd you choose me?

All I want is to be free,

Now you've left me scared and broken,

Nothing more than Daddy's little token.

 

Your little punching bag here I sit,

Waiting like everyday to be hit,

Your anger wells up inside,

As I try to run and hide.

 

The years have past and so have the marks,

But still you leave me in the dark,

It's beginning all over again,

And I don't know if I can win.

 

Can I beat you this time?

Will you get away with this horrid crime?

Will I have the strength to stop you again,

Or will I fall silent and never complain?

 

When will my tears be enough for you?

When can I finally stop being blue?

I'm done asking questions,

How about a suggestion?

 

Leave me alone and leave me be,

Leave my tear soaked teddy bear with me,

It's your fault he's that way now...

 

He's all I'm left with.

 

You killed mommy with just words,

You killed brother with just herds,

Nothing more than your emptiness showing again...

 

I've got you now.

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