Burned Myself Again

I burned myself again the other night
Glowing red bright in the dark
saw it whilst walking to the bridge over the river
hoping that the tide was in
a cigarette flung from a car was tumbling
I picked it up and stubbed it out on my thumb
good pain she was so down and crying
I needed to hurt myself then pretend
that the pain I was feeling was hers
the tide was out at the bridge and I was cold
so I crawled home to my misery again
'Returned to my sin like a dog crawls back to lick it's own vomit'
Gregory of Tours wrote something like that
I lied the next day that I ironed my thumb in work
Felt so bad lying I put the steam iron on the blister
made the lie smaller and the pain worse
 she hadjust needed the cry and a hug
not for me to go and  crash and hurt myself
I think I might be about to stop doing all these stupid things
starting with being be honest and truthful
I had stubbed the Cigarette out on my eye of Horus tattoo
He would have sneered at me

Author's Note

She'd tell me off and be upset, but then she doesn't read this site.....thumb healed up a treat now X

Reviews

[Lily Mae]

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[Judy Ponceby]

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