Feelings Unexplainable

thoughts for quite a while

Tell me a reason to try so hard,
to give my all, and receive so little.
I receive everything from Him.
But from you,
why do I even exist?

I don't need you in my life,
but I can't avoid you.
You're my friend's lover,
and you were my little secret.

I like it when you ignore me,
I hate it when you look at me.
I have no clue how to react
when you pretend to care for me.

Give me a break.
I'm not even your friend.
You used me, said sorry,
passed me with a smile,
and now everything's okay. . .

Not really.
It's not really pain,
that I'm feeling.
I don't know how to feel.

I know I found someone else,
that creates the sounds of my heart.
But I just don't know.
Am I being selfish?

I don't love you,
but I feel terrible
when I'm with you.
I feel lost without you,
and I feel miserable
when you smile at me.

I'm not trying to be selfish,
but sometimes, I just want you.
Other times, I just want you
to leave me alone, to hate me.
Sorry. . . That's just how I feel.

Reviews

[Angelic Surrender]

You're not alone in feeling this way. I feel the same about my ex in a great deal of ways... and I think he feels the same about me. I was ready to let go, however, but he just held on. Great poem. Love your work.

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

This was a good write. I can relate to this piece. I have an ex like that, but we were on and off so much. I don't know how I feel about him either. Sometimes it hard to get over the first person you like. Thanks for sharing. :)