Thoughts.

thinking, loving, wanting, blahblahblah

once every now and then, (6)
I think back and laugh because (7)
the way I acted (5)
and the way I lived, (5)
is just so different. (6)

I lied, (2)
I scoffed, (2)
and I whined. (3)

I suffered through memories, (7)
because of who I am. (6)
I am who I am, (5)
because of how I was raised. (7)

It's no excuse if it's the truth. (8)
I always lost my way. (6)
But Love finally found me. (6)
Love was just another myth, (7)
another hoax (4)
another roux. (4)

Abandoned and abused from birth, (8)
how else should I act? (5)
How else should I live? (5)
God was no where to be found, (7)
The Devil shrouded my eyes. (7)

I crawled to my destination, (8)
I'm here now, (3)
and I'm alive. (4)
I have a new destination, (8)
a final stop, (4)
a resting point. (4)

By His side-- I'll be staying.
I found happiness and love.
It takes forever,
for those of you
who suffer right now.

It does hide,
it runs away when you find it.
That doesn't mean to give up,
it hurts, I know,
I'm always reminded.

But when you find it for yourself,
and when you shed those tears,
because of love that found you,
instead of feelings,
twisted, contorted
those are the tears
you'll remember forever

Author's Note

i made it more into a rap I guess >.>