Shredded

Words in my head today

Sadness and regret
Trying to forget
The words he said
Heart torn to shred

Dreams destroyed
A bomb deployed
A fit of drunken rage
Ugly words on the page
Can't be erased
Without a trace

My soul was so open
Vulnerable and exposed
He knew exactly
How to hurt me
I don't want him to know
How much my pain
Is too large to contain
So I run...

No longer safe in the hope
And promise of his arms
Never asked anyone before
Not to leave me
Wish I would have chosen
To keep my shell
This is hell
I'll never be so transparent again

The grief of finality
The grim reality
Wish we could go back
To long before
He knocked me to the floor
With his words
Now I'm running towards
An uncertain future
Of Lost hope and adventure

The words he said
Left our dream dead
I guess the downhill
Always does...
End

Reviews

[Gee]

My neighbours is a drunken bully towards his wife, makes us wanna go and punch his lights out. Can't understand it, if you don't want to be with someone tell them, what point living a lie then saying false sorrys when hungover.

[Jennesis]

Thank you Gee.

[Pete]

“Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.” - from 'The Good Book'.

[Samuel Dickens]

This is such a painful story, but one that I know isn't that uncommon. My own family has suffered greatly from alcoholism and the inevitable destruction it causes. I'm quite ashamed to say it, but I used to be part of the problem. I don't know why we sometimes hurt the ones we love.

[Jennesis]

Thanks so much Samuel. Yes, alcohol can be pretty damaging, but it sounds like you have made some changes! Appreciate the review~
Jennesis

[jacob erin-cilberto]

wow this is painful...an drunken rage, those words that can't be taken back.

too late for remorse on his part...but the speaker will move on, even toward the uncertain future, and find a certainty in another love....one that is reciprocated, gently but strongly.

[Jennesis]

Oh thanks so much Jacob! I appreciate you. I think for those of us who words are important , they can be especially hurtful. Reciprocity. That's exactly it. :)

[Kelly Scheppers]

"I don't want him to know
How much my pain
Is too large to contain
So I run..."

...riveting words!

As much as the heart is broken, its amazing how it continues to go on. There must be some effect upon it when it breaks, right?

It's always good reading you, Jenn...take care!

[Jennesis]

For sure! Thanks Kelly! Love big or go home I say!! :)

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Love really sucks a*s sometimes, but yours, will be yours. What isn't you don't really want anyway. Keep your head up. There is time for so much more :)

[Jennesis]

Aw! Thanks so much Lynn! What will be will be...there's more for sure.

[wordman]

a heart breaking situation that men and women go through daily
a great write

[Jennesis]

Thanks so much wordman!

[wordman]

you are welcome