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This is obviously more of a rant than anything... was originally intended to be a rap, but I can't rap... so I changed the format a little bit. Enjoy?

Life seems to be a never-ending existential crisis

it's

fighting hard to tear me right to bits

it's

hard to know what the future will hold,

when in the present you're fighting to keep yourself on your toes

I

don't know how I got to this place in my mind,

thought I'd left it all behind

But

here I go, facing the dark that hides my demons,

losing all hope in believing that i've got a place in the world,

that I'm here for some reason other than to curl,

Up

into a ball and lay down so I don't fall

Into

the arms of the skeleton waiting in the closet

at the end of the hall (breathe)

I think I need help but I'm too stubborn to say so,

refuse to let the world know I've taken a step back towards despair

so

here we go again

here we here we go again

here we go again

here we here we go again

did I make the right choice,

will I make it again,

when I decide what to do til the end?

Maybe,

but I guess you never know

until you take the plunge and don't look back

But see

I can't just let go of what's done,

the bad times and good fun

I'm lost

At sea

You can't

See me

past the smile that hides the pain in my eyes

and if

you only knew the pain I'm going through

I don't know if you'd still want a me and you

lost, lost

in a sea of skeletons

looking for air

but coming up empty handed

and with the world on my shoulders

I just wanna be free and do as I please

(whatever it may be)

so help me find my ground

I'm begging you please